May 7, 2009 @ 9:17 PM
It was nice but weird at the same time.
It felt so familiar but yet again, different.
Hearing you say I LOVE YOU is more than enough even though I yearn of things that seems so out of reach.
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8:55 PM
Close friends, Best friends.
The fine difference between them?
The wonders I have and the answers I lack.
Labels: poTAYto poTAto.
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May 6, 2009 @ 9:41 PM
WHISPERS.
It gets harder every time, everybody knows that but nobody really knows how hard we struggle to hold on and how hard we try to make it work.
I made a vow to MYSELF that I would never let anyone see me shed a tear. I will cry, that's inevitable, I will cry till my head hurts so bad, till my eyes swells up, my cheeks ache, till my lungs are on fire and till I fall asleep. But I'm gonna wake up the next day, wipe my tears and breathe, praying that it will be a better day.
I vowed not to make anymore empty promises lest I hurt you again because I broke your heart far too many times.
"We are from two different worlds", you said, and that jolted me out of my seat and in my mind I thought, "That's just what makes us perfect for each other" but I knew you weren't thinking the same. I guess love has made me blind. I know its unfair to you having to go through so much just to be with me and even though it hurts me, I know its hurting you even more, feeling so torn apart. I'm sorry I've been selfish.
Its been four years plus, 51 months to be exact. You said what we have is what we have and I know that you didn't mean that materially but emotionally as well. I won't lie, I'll grin with envy every time I see my cousin with her fiance but, what we have is what we have.
The anxiety is still there. Every time I call you on the phone, I get nervous. Every time it rings, my heart skips a beat faster and when you answered, my heart stops, waiting for your response. I'll listen to your tone of voice and if you sounded pissed, I'll feel so afraid and if there is that sense of joy in your voice, I'll heave a sigh of relief.
"There will come a day when you're gonna stand in front of me and cry your heart out, and I will never be able to help you, even if blood became your tears cause I'm sick and tired of it all".
Your words have been sitting at the back of my head everyday since you said that and eveyday I'll always be walking on toes, minding my every move. I've made you lose all hopes you had in me. I'm sorry.
Labels: I'm biting my tongue.
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May 5, 2009 @ 7:08 PM
The recent treacherous heat has resulted to bad migranes, chest pains and back aches.
Blagh.
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May 3, 2009 @ 5:15 PM
Baby, Happy 51st Monthsary. I ♥ you and this is for you.
Our love has brought us here.
My love I've put hand to ink, ink to page.
To you, I owe a little song to display, how I feel.
You have taken a little piece of me.
I'm not sure (if) you know,
I'm captivated, by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me,
So I wrote this song as a tribute to you.
Tonight we'll dance,
Do what we love, the best.
I know we'll never give only what's left,
Lets get this show on the road.
You have taken a little piece of me.
I'm not sure (if) you know,
I'm captivated by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me,
So I wrote this song as a tribute.
And I'll remember the moments we've shared,
Laughing and dancing without a care.
Knowing that I can't stop time now,
I want you to know, I'll always be there.
You have taken a little piece of me,
I'm captivated, by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me
So I wrote this song.
You have taken a little piece of me,
I'm captivated by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me.
So I wrote this song [x3]
To you.
P/S: Listen to my blog song.
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May 2, 2009 @ 4:29 PM
Some days we are on cloud nine while some days we have things getting out of line.
So, I go through life like a karate kid.
Labels: Mr Right
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May 1, 2009 @ 12:35 PM
I had a bucket of laughs yesterday. Like all my tiny laugh-lings have been behaving quitely all this while and decided to let loose yesterday. I laughed myself the whole day through, entertaining my friends.
At night, I met Kak Desi, Razak, Show and his friend and we lepak at this void deck. I had a ball with them, I always do everytime, with Green Tea bottles everywhere. Bf came later. The only thing missing was Nowreen syg and Blueberry Tea. *laughs.
What a great way to end April, and for those who had a sucky April, I hope May will be the better month. Cause' right now, I started my first of May with a bloody right eye thanks to my bloody contact lens.
Labels: am addicted to The White Tie Affair.
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