the best
November 29, 2009 @ 7:27 PM
- Listened to Katy Perry - Thinking of you.
- Felt the gushed of cold wind.
- You came in my mind.
- Lay down and let the very first tear fall from my left.
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wishful thinker
1:02 PM
Sometimes I wish, they would see it through my eyes.
They all see this little girl who laughs at even the littlest things but they dion't see how hard I fall, how hard I break. I took everything, as much as I could in my stride. Little did I know it will break me now. So lost I am.
xoxo
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empty promises
November 28, 2009 @ 3:41 PM
When a line is drawn, it signifies boundaries. At times I wish I could just disappear, run away from it all. Most of the times I put on a front showing people that I don't really care about my surroundings, perhaps that way it is easy to move on with the day without worrying about the whole truth. Then reality sets in, I cared too much. That was the brutal truth.
At times, I'm done trying simply because my efforts are never appreciated. All the times I tried to at least be there for anyone, it will always come and bite me back in the rear. Even after all that, I get blamed for everything. Where was everyone when I was in need? Everyone suddenly and silently went away without a word. Even the most important people in my life are starting to slowly pull away, trying hard enough not to hurt me; but what they do not know is - they are already did. Nobody knows how its killing me inside.
I won't say that no one understands me, because I'm sure at least someone does. Words are easy to say but turning it into actions are always a struggle. I'm struggling now. Promise is a big word, my promises are empty now. I'm slowly losing grip. I'm not making sense anymore. & they say keeping mum in a moment of anger, saves a thousand days of sorrow.
xoxo
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jack was nimble
November 26, 2009 @ 9:02 PM
School was quite redundant today, Well, in my opinion.Two more weeks and it is the holidays. One class assessment down and few more to go before I officially start my holidays. Then I am going to waste myself away with the all the party people, my party people.As we all know it, before we enjoy the rainbow we need to bear with heavy rain, fight against the rain that might or even will bring us down. Things have been rough lately for some people but that way we know what really goes on. We find out things that we never thought would be true and things that we wished we would never have to know. But hell, the truth isn't always the nicest things and it isn't always what we want to hear.
I'm gonna have a busy week coming ahead, so my dear readers please be patient with me okay?
xoxo.
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jack
November 23, 2009 @ 8:17 PM
Have you heard, there's this thing that heals and it's called time.
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
-Pixie Lott
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quest 2009
November 21, 2009 @ 11:20 PM
Quest was finally here! Jen and I have been so excited about it since we signed for it like a month ago. I'm not sure about the boys though. So, Baby and I met with Jen and her bf at Cityhall before walking off to Fort Canning for registration. Flagged off at 10am, believe it or not we were already so energetic early in the morning on a Saturday!It was a fun experience despite the fact that we were under the treacherous scorching hot fireball. aka the sun. Laughing at the silliest thing throughout it all. I think I can safely say; we all agree that this is not about winning at all. It was about the experience and just for the fun of it. I know I had a ball of time. Jumping around and singing out loud just so that we will not get overwhelmed by how tired we are.
Once we reached the end point, grabbed our goodie bags and eagerly went to the Milo Dispensing vehicle, all four of us. We were 95 per cent parched. I lost count on how many times we refilled that tiny Milo cup. After it all, when all the prize was given away, the performances was done, we head off to have our lunchner(lunch & dinner) at KFC before heading home.
I had a great time today. I really needed the fun after quite a rough week and it was worth the while. I could not have asked for a better team. Jen, Hareweed, Baby and of course, myself.
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xoxo
November 20, 2009 @ 6:31 PM
p/s: J, I hope you stay strong.
you know we love you.
xoxo,WG
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once a fairytale
November 19, 2009 @ 8:39 PM
Three words, eight letters, a million definitions.
We are no ordinary couple or at least I'd like to believe that. We express our love differently. We had our ways. We have had our fair share of fights but we do have a wonderful memory to fall back on. Now that memory is thinning away.
No doubt that we have been arguing a lot lately even over little things, but all that has to come from somewhere. We've been through so much, I thought I would be stronger every time but I thought wrong. I'm not strong, I never was. It does not hurt any less when we fight but I have to admit it gets sweeter every time we made up. Things have changed between us. Most of the times, we no longer talk with our hearts. We search deep enough through each others eyes but sometimes only to find gray.
Are our arguments a way to tell us and each other that we still care, that there is still love? Or are they a sign of another? Time and time again we look for ways to remind ourselves why we fell in love in the first place. I need time to make things right again. I started this and I need to find a way to resolve this for I know that miracles are a whole bull of crapt.
I want you to know that I love you still even though I don't know if we could surpass this. We are just too afraid to ask one another how we really feel or at least I am simply because I or we are afraid of what the answers are. So, we go on with where we left off, we kiss and make up leaving a trail of a million questions behind.
No doubt that we have been arguing a lot lately even over little things, but all that has to come from somewhere. We've been through so much, I thought I would be stronger every time but I thought wrong. I'm not strong, I never was. It does not hurt any less when we fight but I have to admit it gets sweeter every time we made up. Things have changed between us. Most of the times, we no longer talk with our hearts. We search deep enough through each others eyes but sometimes only to find gray.
Are our arguments a way to tell us and each other that we still care, that there is still love? Or are they a sign of another? Time and time again we look for ways to remind ourselves why we fell in love in the first place. I need time to make things right again. I started this and I need to find a way to resolve this for I know that miracles are a whole bull of crapt.
I want you to know that I love you still even though I don't know if we could surpass this. We are just too afraid to ask one another how we really feel or at least I am simply because I or we are afraid of what the answers are. So, we go on with where we left off, we kiss and make up leaving a trail of a million questions behind.
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gravity
November 18, 2009 @ 7:16 PM
I'm sure everyone knows what it feels like to have something going on so well then a minute later, something else slap us hard in the face. Leaving us clueless for a minute or so, finding air to breathe in right again and slowly let our heartbeat rate goes back to normal. Then we slowly try to piece back the pieces, trying hard to look or find the bigger picture. While we keep asking what went wrong, we tend to forget about resolving. We get all worked up trying to gather all the right words to say even though most of them are already at the tip of our tongue. We ask and ask and ask yet we hardly get the answer we're looking for, it's like searching for a needle in a hay stack. It's normal to see things from only our view most of the time, everyone is a narcissist somewhere deep inside. We need that nudge as a wake up call to see things in a different light. Usually from someone other than ourselves. That is what the slap is for, hypothetically or literally.
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6:37 PM
2012 was not that bad. Caught it with Baby and his aunt's family. The way the movie was portrayed was more likely of a transition, not an apocalypse. There was some gut-retching parts, a little bit of humor here and there but there was suspense all the way. The ending kinda suck though. It was unexpected but c'mon, it should have been better. I will not give much of the movie away for those who plans to watch it. So I'll just part it with a rating. I give about 3.5 pop dogs.
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flamboyant
November 17, 2009 @ 8:39 PM
HAPPY 18TH DEE!
Finally the much awaited update of Dee's birthday is finally up. I hope you enjoyed the pictures, there are more at facebook. Just click on the on the link below to view more.
We decided to celebrate her birthday a day later just to make the surprise even better. Therefore right after our OCBC trip with the class and Sam, the girls and I rushed home, get ready and meet up again to head down to Botanic. It was quite a crazy ride to Botanic, we were way behind schedule. Nad and I were practically rushing things through and we had to ask Jen to stall for more time. Even so, once we reached Botanic, we hurried to get the things set up, blowing balloons and whatnot, just to make it merrier.
My favourite part of the day/night was when Dee requested for jump shots. HAHA. But I was already laughing my ass off even before we surprised Dee because I had to pretend to be Jen's bf to make thing believable for Dee because we all know the questions she will ask. Jen was talking gibberish while talking to me. Knowing Dee you don't know what to expect if we were to surprise her besides her most ridiculous and yet funny answers, so when we surprised her, she went "Go Away". Not the usual "OMG, you guys did this". Yes, that's our lovely Dee. The day was going awesomely when it started to drizzle so we moved our fun down to a shelter and continued from where we left off.
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something new
November 16, 2009 @ 11:53 PM
Back with a new b.skin babies. Miss me much? I know I have an immense amount of updating to do. Forgive me my dear readers. One I was too caught up with Gossip Girl, two I was tired and three I was simple being a lazy ass. So I have quite a number of updates that should be up by now; HRA OCBC Trip, Dee's birthday and my weekends. Therefore I promise it'll be up tomorrow. Ohh, spare me a day will you? In the mean time, why don't you lovely babies relive my tagboard. It too is new. Shower it with nice words when you're done visiting. Don't worry, hate tags will be deleted, so don't waste your time.
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On a off key and serious note. Expectations are not that all worth the while don't you think? I build up mountains of hope only to see most of it come crashing down or even some not having the chance to go up at all. I know I've told myself that I'd hope less and start resolving more, lest I want to get myself hurt. It is mostly my fault for putting so much hope on something that I know will never happen, perhaps in another twenty years. Then again, how do you deal with things that you have been yearning for, for a long time? How do you deal with things when words are not an option? Hoping is the only way because we all know, or at least I believe that there is no such things as miracles. That is where my weakness lies, I hope too much. I hoped that things will get better when I know that it might not. I hoped that things will be like how it used to when I know that it never will. I hoped that you would see it through my eyes even though I know you could never do it and I hoped that my hopes will come true even when I know that chances are, they never will. It hurts when it dies but maybe that is what I need to stop. I need the fall as my wake up call.Labels: xoxo
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band aid
November 13, 2009 @ 7:11 PM
I've picked my words for the best of your interest, not mine. I've covered the truth with a little white lie. A picture of me with your heart in my hand in which band aids are never the remedy. I'll bite my tongue when it happens, I'll let the words eat me up. It may sound bloody pathetic getting excited over a little thing but they do not understand our situation, or at least mine. They do not understand why it meant a lot to me, why I'm getting disappointed over it and sometimes you don't either.
When it is at a stage where too many things have been left unsaid, even the trivial things gets so complicated as we scramble on to fit the missing pieces or at least hold on to a dying memory. When that happens, feelings or words do not seem to matter anymore. They take a step back while we focus on protecting the other.
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my love
November 11, 2009 @ 11:28 PM
You don't love someone because they are perfect,
you love them in spite the fact that they are not.
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my sister's keeper
November 10, 2009 @ 12:03 AM
I went on and make use of my birthday gift and went to catch My Sister's Keeper in the cinema. Every time a book was remade into a movie, I kind of knew that it can never be as good as the book. However without realization, I went into the theater with a whole lot of expectations. I could not stop myself from thinking that somehow the movie is going to be better. Yet again, I was wrong. I did cry though, i know I would. It was not entirely the same as the book, we all know that. Most part has been cut or altered, some characters are different from the book and some who are in the book was not in the movie at all. Like Julia the guardian ad litem ; she was not in the movie at all. Campbell Alexander the attorney was in his mid forties whereby I expected him to be this some hot twenty five year old. Brian Fitzgerald looks older that what he was described as in the book and Kate and Julia was two years younger from what they are stated in the book. Even though most of the exciting part was altered, I was most disappointed with the ending. It was so far from how the book ended, so so far. I'm glad I read the book first before I watched the movie because you would not understand it. Given the fact that its about 4/5 pop dogs, I would watch it again with a heartbeat.
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killer
November 4, 2009 @ 1:50 PM
No doubt that I love her! Alrightey, since I've got some free time on my hands, lets do an update. Nothing much happened this week besides the fact that I've been sick since last Sunday and missed two days of school in which I do not know whether I should be overjoyed or worried. However it is good to be at home during this monsoon season where the cold wind makes my bed feel like a paradise. It's no surprise I spent most time in bed one because the medical drugs I got from the doctor was so strong, it couldn't have knocked me out faster and it really gave drowsiness a new definition(my freezer can vouch for that) and two I got to relish the moment where I don't have to be in school. Well the fever might have subside but the migraine still lingers on, same goes for the killer sore throat. I hate it because all those sweet drinks for me must be left untouched. :( It does not help to be hungry all the time and has no appetite at the same time. Anyway, thank you again Baby for accompanying me to the doctor and entertaining me no matter how irritating and bi polar-ish I get.
Labels: xoxo
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