April 28, 2009 @ 7:14 PM
Banana-rama.
L.O.V.E
Group photo
Pikachu
Kangaroo
Humai, Myself, Diana & Doraemon
Ain & 'her' Zac Efron. haha.
Ellisya(myself), Ain, Maisarah and Jia Wei
We're suppose to report to school at 8am today instead of 12pm because there's a talk with the principal at ITE Macpherson and we have to be there. As usual,we were never early nor on time. *laughs. Took attendance, board the bus and off to Macpherson. Half way through the talk I slept and I was in the second row some more, you can imagine how many people at the back might have doze off. Class in the afternoon were cancelled, for our class that is. Ayn had to return back to Bishan for lessons. Poor Ayn.
Therefore, some of us went to City Plaza to have lunch at Arnold's. Overall it was okay. I had a great time, the food was great and the company was awesome. Went mindlessly and aimlessly walking in TKC waiting for the rain to stop or at least drizzle. Some left half way due to certain commitments while the rest headed to Bugis and, well just....
Went to Iluma, the newly opened shopping mall at Bugis. Walk around, took some crazy pictures as you can see above then its time to go home. I was tired. Bf came over to my place cause I miss him and I'm missing him again.
And now, I want to go and finish up my assignments. Bye.
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April 25, 2009 @ 7:27 PM
I am happy with where my life is at right now,
but why do I still cry myself to sleep every night?
Someone answer me please.
"Maybe its the way I take things I read way too deep" - Daphne Khoo
Labels: God please.
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In Another Life
April 24, 2009 @ 9:42 PM
Being so afraid, might have cost me my happiness. I watched you walk away because of my mistakes and I watch you come back for love. I'm hard to handle, I know. I can never suppress what I'm feeling and I can never put my finger on the things that bothers me. I can be so disoriented, I can be a bitch. I can never fathom that I might be losing myself. Find me, please, before I, myself walk away.
Tell me Baby, tell me friends, tell me God, am I strong enough to make through everyday without having having to feel so inferior?
Labels: God's sent or mistakes?
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April 23, 2009 @ 8:49 PM
Today was a long day. Long hours of classes wasn't a ray of sunshine, not that there isn't enough lately. I'm beat, my body is aching and everything seems to be all over the place. Tomorrow just feels like a waste of time but what to do, its my commitment.
I gotta be strong and not succumb to all those negativity, I promised ♥Bf that I'd work hard and I'm gonna do just that for the next two years no matter how it goes.
I want to rest now. Bye.
Labels: Coke
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April 22, 2009 @ 7:37 PM
Happy Birthday to my dearest Suhaiza! May God bless you and all the best in everything you do. I know there's a 99.99999% that you'll never read this but there is also a 0.00001% that you will and if a miracle happens and that you are, just know that I'm always here for you no matter what. I hope you're doing fine. I felt that I've lost you but if this makes you happy, I'm happy for you. I miss you and I love you always.
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Scarce
April 19, 2009 @ 10:07 PM
There's a fine difference between acceptance and tolerance.
Read between the lines.
♥ At times, things get hard and the only thing we could so is just, breathe in the mild air and hope for a better tomorrow. God bless.
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purple
April 17, 2009 @ 6:37 PM
I never really knew what I'd do if someone I love and care about would leave me, forever, just like that without having our last goodbyes. Especially if I lose Baby. I don't know what I'd do without him, but I wouldn't want me to die first either (touchwood) cause I wouldn't want him to go through to the pain and the grief of losing. Cause that would hurt even more.
Therefore we should live our lives to the fullest but with limits and logically.
Here are some things that I'd want to do/have before I die:
- Meet Lauren Conrad
- Get married
- Have three children
- Ride in a helicopter
- Meet Frank Anthony Iero
- Have an autographed Manolo Blahniks
- San Francisco with Baby
There's more and if I were to list it all, it would prolly take all night. *laughs.
Labels: blessings
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April 15, 2009 @ 9:09 PM
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13april2009-15april2009
7:39 PM
As most of you know, I have already started school in ITE Bishan. April 13th was the first day. It was alright,except we all came to find out that the first day of school was also the orientation itself. Everyone was clueless and feeling very awkward since we are cramped together like sardines on the cold hard bleachers for what I think could have been for two hours. So look closely at the bleachers and you might just see our butt prints there. *laughs. I find the rest of first day, well, pathetic. The 'bridge leaders' was trying hard to hype us up early in the effing morning but I have to say Bishan's April intake is a tough crowd. *laughs. Overall, the first day was draggy and boring.
Second day was much better, everyone was starting to warm up with each other, participating in games and whatnot planned, no matter how pathetic it was. Second day was a handful. There was a dance competition cum concert (for us, that is) and it made me miss cheering and dancing even more. But when I reached home, my cousin called asking for my help. She and a group of friends are participating in a dance competition and needed my help. I eagerly agreed. :) I invited Indri along. Taught them some dance moves and help them with their routines, and my job was done. I really had a great time dancing again,seriously. I miss cheering an awful lot. Went home tired but happy. *wide smile.
And today is the third day. I must say today went quite well. Everyone was comfortable with each other, we are no longer strangers. Today we started following the timetable set for us, but typical 'first day' in class means no teaching for the lecturers, just the basic 'getting to know each other' crap. I think I might gain a few pounds because of the breaks we got. Tsk. The rest of the day went off like a breeze, okay maybe not. Just a tinsy bit.
Thus, that's how my first three days of new school went. It wasn't as bad as how I imagined it would be given how melodramatic I can get. Its just tiring. Wonder how I'm gonna make it for two years. *laughs.
Labels: crushcrush
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April 14, 2009 @ 11:05 PM
Sorry for the absence thus the lack of updates.
Been busy but I will post a proper update when time prevails.
xoxo,ellie.
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Butterflies
April 10, 2009 @ 12:35 AM
Breathing heavily every now and then, makes me realize that time doesn't really heal. It may have been years but it doesn't get easier. Talking about it may come out easy but dwelling on it is inevitable. Yes, I'm used to it but I can still feel the hurt.
Easily putting on a brave front and painting a smile gets easier as time goes by but having the reality about the situation sitting at the back of my head never does.
Maybe this is God's way to tell me that I'm not ready for it just yet, for the truth, something different from what I imagined. But will I ever be ready?
(editted)
♥ its better that I see it through your eyes.
Labels: see it from my point of view.
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Photos
April 8, 2009 @ 9:19 PM
*Caution, heavy pictorial post*
Night Out with The Guys.
Pre-night Out with The Guys.
Girls Day Out at Sentosa.
Labels: a red dress affair.
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12:03 AM
I want to cry but holding back seems pretty sane now.
I want to be strong but am I strong enough?
I don't want to break you but will it break me instead?
Is this just another phase?
Labels: curl your tongue and bite your lips.
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April 7, 2009 @ 11:45 PM
We wanted to meet Mrs Tay, our motherly form teacher. She's the greatest form and English teacher anyone could ever ask for, in my opinion at least. But she was busy with oral examinations. Never mind, next time perhaps.
It feels good going back to an environment where I felt most comfortable in. Where every path I took seems to be the right one and knowing that whatever that goes wrong can and will be corrected. Even though there are certain things that made me dislike that school, its the place where I've had the most fond memories with my dear ones during my five years there. Memories that I will carry throughout my life.
♥ Art during Math, good times, good times.
Labels: locked.
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April 6, 2009 @ 4:01 PM
I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Woke up feeling totally guilty and tired. If I could stay in bed all day, I would. But I decided not too.
Anyway,in exactly a weeks time, school will start. As excited as I am that this draggy holidays are ending, I'm still quite jittery for school. Despite the fact that Ain who has been in the same school with me since primary school will be going to the same school with me, doesn't make me feel at ease at all. I don't know, we'll see how it goes when school starts.
Better enjoy my holidays while I can. Will be going down to Unity tmr to collect my O level cert and my testimonial and perhaps see those familiar faces once again.
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April 3, 2009 @ 6:29 PM
Happy 50th Monthsary Baby.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't love you. Not a second pass by that I don't think about you. You've been my pillar of strength. My shoulder to lean on, anytime and anywhere. I can never stay mad at you for long because hearing your voice and the smile that it brings, will instantly enlighten me. You're the one who can always put a smile upon my face no matter how bitchy I can be. You've made me realize what being in love really means how it can change one's life if not the other. You're the one who always makes my heart flutter with the little things you do. The one I can never get enough of. I ♥ you sweet baby.
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April 2, 2009 @ 3:03 PM
31march09
Okay, I wanted to post about 31march09 yesterday but I was all caught up with something else (noted:yst post) . So anyway, I woke up early that day 'cause I was suppose to go back Bishan to finish up the last part of the registration. Baby came along with me cause he took leave on that day. Its been a long time since I wake myself up that early in the morning, because Baby told his Mum that he had a half day at work. We had breakfast then head off for a long ride to Bishan. God, was I sleepy.
Moving on, Baby sent me home at around 11plus, sent Iman to school and chilled at Aunt's place for awhile. Baby and I meet up again in the afternoon together with Pinky and Din. I wasn't quite sure what the plan was but on the way there, we were held up by this Traffic Police, I don't really want to elaborate 'cause its just not worth it, all I can say about that TP is that, oh dear, your parents didn't gave you a chance whilst naming you. And before I knew it we reached Town.
I wanted to get myself a new school bag, so we checked things out Far East. When nothing really caught my eye to make me change my mind from the Flesh Imp bag that I've been eyeing, its off to Wisma for the Flesh Imp boutique. I bought my bag in black, Baby got himself a new lanyard for his keys and I wanted this very cute tote there. But, my financial assistant aka Baby was giving me his 'faces'. *baby if you're reading this, you know what I mean. After that, we went to this cute little shoe shop 'cause Pinky wanted to buy a shoe. There were lots of mirrors there so Baby and I took the chance to take some pictures (above).
Planned to have dinner at East Coast but after a long aching butt ride we reached EC only to find out that it was closed for spring cleaning. Dang it! So we head off to this place where you'd dine near the train tracks. Quite cool. With a full tummy, we head home. Well, that's about it. I had fun, really.
Nowreen syg, I will send you Sentosa pictures soon okay? Hatta has yet to send them to me.
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3:15 PM
ANY SIGNS OF LOVE?
I'm not sure whether I should be furious or hurt right now. What the hell is wrong with you? Just when I thought that you've repent and try to make our relationship work, you decide to turn the ship around.
My God Dad, what is it that you want? I gave you a chance to mend our strained relationship and just when I thought things are starting to get better you decide to pull the trigger. I'm tired of picking up your slack, I know Mum is but she's your wife. You did things I find it hard to comprehend. I know I have no right to be rude to you but I have the right to feel hurt, to feel angry. You blame me for your mistakes and the words that you speak pierced through me like a knife. Have you ever stop and think that what you say or do will affect me? Or to just pause and think of the consequences of your actions? You may have three children but I'm your only daughter, doesn't that count for something? You put all your attention to Iman, and seem to forget about us(ijad & I). Have you ever thought of what we need or what we want? I know we have the choice whether we want to confide in you or not, but did you ever gave us a chance to choose? I don't know D, I'm tired of it. I tried but you just made me gave up.
♥ Sorry may be the hardest word but Forgiving is still the hardest thing to do.
I'm not sure whether I should be furious or hurt right now. What the hell is wrong with you? Just when I thought that you've repent and try to make our relationship work, you decide to turn the ship around.
My God Dad, what is it that you want? I gave you a chance to mend our strained relationship and just when I thought things are starting to get better you decide to pull the trigger. I'm tired of picking up your slack, I know Mum is but she's your wife. You did things I find it hard to comprehend. I know I have no right to be rude to you but I have the right to feel hurt, to feel angry. You blame me for your mistakes and the words that you speak pierced through me like a knife. Have you ever stop and think that what you say or do will affect me? Or to just pause and think of the consequences of your actions? You may have three children but I'm your only daughter, doesn't that count for something? You put all your attention to Iman, and seem to forget about us(ijad & I). Have you ever thought of what we need or what we want? I know we have the choice whether we want to confide in you or not, but did you ever gave us a chance to choose? I don't know D, I'm tired of it. I tried but you just made me gave up.
♥ Sorry may be the hardest word but Forgiving is still the hardest thing to do.
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