July 30, 2009 @ 9:38 PM
I'm living in a world where it's all about you & me.
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free.
To spread my wings & fly away, away with you.
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TRY
July 29, 2009 @ 10:09 PM
A week. Within that time span, I have to juggle school, family, friends, work and my time with Baby. First of all, to make it clear, I'm not complaining.
School, its inevitable. I need it, for my own good. School revolves around me 95% of the time, then I have to juggle my time spent with my friends given the fact that most of them are also truly busy with their own commitments and the time with Baby in which is very important to me because of the time constraint we have, like meeting for a few minutes on Wednesday nights before we can fully enjoy being together if met on Saturdays. I'm grateful though, because amidst everything he manages to find time for us.
Strangely enough, I'm quite surprise that I could hold on this far given the fact that I suck at time management. I'm surprised that my studies are not affected by work and work are not affected by my personal life, well not so much I guess. Don't get me wrong, like everyone else, I'm still trying to figure out the things in life. Busy and hectic is usually used to describe my day but at the end of it all I know it will be worth the while.
Like I said, sometimes busy is good, busy keeps me sane. Plus it tires me so much so that I'd go to bed early and fall asleep easily rather than having to deal with the minor insomnia.
p/s: i know 11pm is not early but at least its better than having me fall asleep at 1 or 2 in the morning.
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a wedding affair
July 28, 2009 @ 7:32 PM
1.How old are you?
* eighteen.
2.Are you single?
* no.
3.At what age do you think you'll get married?
* twenty-five.
4.Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
* yes yes yes yes!
5.If not, who do you want to marry?
* no one else.
6.Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
* my best-est cousin and Nowreen Khan.
7.Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
* traditional with my own kind of touch.
8.What will your preferred wedding theme be?
* wonderland.
9.Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
* just somewhere romantic.
10.How many guests do you think you'll invite?
* all of my family and friends.
11.Will that include your exes?
* perhaps but maybe not.
12.How many layers of cake do you want?
* three to five.
13.When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
* after noon.
14.Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding?
* Baby it's fact acoustic version.
15.Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon, fork and knife?
* just normal would be fine.
16.Champagne or red wine?
* no alcohol please.
17.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
* One day after the wedding.
18.Money or household items?
* a little bit of both.
19.How many kids would you like to have?
* three would be just nice.
20.Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
* YES!
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shoelaces
July 27, 2009 @ 9:33 PM
Lessons in school was super dry today but ironically there was gazillions of laughter today. Like the ever so brightly colored butterflies in my tummy decided to fly free.
Sidetracking to the train ride to school this morning. By now most of you know that I'm really disliking train rides in the morning, firstly because I think the people boarding are still half-dead and not that mine isn't but at least I know my brain juices has start flowing. Seriously, respect my personal space. I know there is a 98.2% chances that it would happen but just don't touch me or shove me or whatnot. I know I'm small but I don't need that, esp not in the early morning. By personal space I also mean that if I don't fucking know you, do not read my text messages. I can know, you know.
Here's examples that should not be followed. Do not try keeping glances at my phone when I'm sending a text just because you are tall you motherchucker. And do not, not ever read the newspaper standing near me and letting the paper constantly hit my head. I swear I can make you get out of the train with your pants wet.
Stupid train rides.
Anywho, I met Fafa at Lot 1 after school today. Accompanied her to buy some stuffs then we head to the rooftop garden and talk and took pictures with the webcam. I had a good time hanging out with her again. We should do it again sometimes Afa. FONDUE TIME!!!
I need to meet the rest of the girls soon too. Am missing them like crazy esp Nurdinah Farhanah. :D
p/s: its true that blogger has been an ass and many have moved to Onsugar, tumblr or Lj. So should I? Idk, i'll just wait and see I guess.
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a bed of yellow roses
July 26, 2009 @ 12:52 PM
Cleared out my room yesterday. And I mean CLEAR OUT. Baby came over to help dismantle my old bed. Well, Baby and my brother dismantled the bed. Now my room is rather empty and all that is left is the wardrobe which will be taken out by the delivery people, the iron board and the study table.The room needs to be repainted too.
After all is done, I clean the room while Baby head home. We met again later in the evening for dinner. Had Fish & Co. at IMM. Great dinner.After dinner we headed to my place and chilled.
Me: Beh, if I die tmr, would you be able to love another?
Him: Perhaps, five years later, after I've moved on.
Me: But there's no other like me right?
Him: No.
Aww, so sweet.
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over-rated
July 23, 2009 @ 8:14 PM
Shagged, seems to be the right word for today. School has been just fine so far. Five months felt like its already half the semester. I'm glad I've found friends that seemed like I've known them for years. Baby has been supportive too even though he knows its not much. I really hope to do well in school, I mean I already had a great start. We'll see how the rest of the months go.
On another note, I had to do a speech today about "If I only have 24 hours to live". I think I did pretty well. There are many things I would like to achieve in life but if its my time to go, I don't want to go with regrets. I have love my life as it is and choosing to be a happy person helps. I've taken too many things for granted and there is also no point to dwell on the past.
I miss Baby, he's having night class now so I think I won't here from him till late. Hope to meet him this Saturday. Oh and I'll be bed-less on Friday night, Mom sold my old bed and I have to crash on the floor till the new furniture for my room arrives next week.
Labels: collision
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9:21 AM
I am bored but at the same time I'm a nervous nellie.
CMB speech later on and I'm the first speaker.
Yikes! I think the need the toilet.
p/s: finally. blogger has been like a b*tch lately.
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your call
July 21, 2009 @ 9:18 PM
Been waiting for your call. I miss you.
I don't always ask for anything in return but just one. For you to love me. That's it, I already know you do but.
You know what I've said this countless times, maybe this is just they way its suppose to be. I'll love you no matter what, you know that. All those years yearning, maybe someday I'll find my answer.
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sidewalk
July 19, 2009 @ 5:41 PM
SATURDAY
I went shopping yesterday. Went out with Baby, Pinky & Din. I wanted to get my Crocs and my Charles & Keith handbag. But I ended up getting only the handbag. Why? Because there wasn't any in my size for the Crocs that I wanted. I'll buy it some other time.Went to Marina Square to catch the fireworks. Then off to ECP for dinner. Talk about ghost during dinner which made me scared out of my wits. Headed home and luckily everyone was still up because I swear I would be terrified being all alone if everyone is asleep.
SUNDAY
Had to go to a wedding function which I wasn't very keen on going. One because Kak Desi isn't gg to there until later and two because I am not really close with those people. So I asked Baby to tag along. heehee. Reached there, mingle around, eat, mingle some more then Baby and I went off because he has yet to pack his bag for book in tonight and he still has to buy the necessities.
Reached my place, talk then he left to fetch his sister. Meeting him again tonight before he books in.
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5:37 PM
Every night, I seem to go to bed enduring all sorts of pain. I will be in antagonizing agony thanks to the back aches, my chest will feel like it was just punched by some one. Pain will be on every possible part of my body.
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8:12 PM
Finally its FRIDAY. Friday means short school hours, home early, more napping time. Had lunch with Humai, Jannah, Nadiah and Diana at Pizza Hut today. Talk and laugh, the usual. CMB project/research/file and recording done and submitted. One done and god knows how many more to go. But busy is good, busy keeps me sane.The week has been a hectic one, rushing datelines everywhere. But ironically time has been very slow. I feel hopeless and the best part is, I don't effing know why.
Baby has been so temperamental lately. I guess I understand why but its hard to put myself in his shoes since I, myself have never experience what he is experiencing. I'm just trying to take it in my stride and try to be less of a bit*h like I am always am.
* i know where i stand here. i don't need you to keep reminding me.
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seeing gray
July 15, 2009 @ 10:16 PM
So many things to do, so little time. School was alright today. Met Syuhaila sweetheart after school at woodlands before heading to Lot 1. I had fun, a lot of catching up. Took pictures in which I received only hours later. She must be so excited. haha.It was never easy, not for you, not for me, not for us. We have to face so many things that people always take for granted. We have gone through so much, people think it was just a breeze. They don't know what we've been through. They don't know what we have to give up to make this work. I appreciate everything you've done for me. Every sacrifice you've made just for OUR time together. Its never enough how much I can tell you that I love you.
Labels: lemonade
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flaws and all.
July 14, 2009 @ 8:59 PM
I've been having this back ache for days now, and today it hurts so bad. So so bad. Ma wants me to go to the doctor but I told her don't need to. I've the bared the pain for so long, I can do it.
I never told Baby how bad it is either lest he worry about me. He has had enough worries as it is, I won't add mine to his plate.
Baby, I know things have been rough in camp. All I have are my words of comforts. At times, I can't help but wonder how different it would be for us if you don't have to go through national service. I miss you sending me to school, picking me up, seeing each other almost eveyday, watching marathons of whatever on the telly, all sorts of stuff we use to do together. Through the good and bad times, I'll always be here for you.
I miss you babe and I love you.
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8:44 PM
School was hilarious today. Met the girls early today for our CMB recording. Laugh here laugh there, non-stop. Met the rest of the girls in class and laugh some more during break. Did this video during break, in mememory of Michael Jackson.
Blah blah blah.
School ends, I head home and take a nice nap.
Pardon me because you have to tilt your head. Ain took in a landscape position.
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July 13, 2009 @ 9:46 PM
I miss my babyboyfriend.
Feel better baby.
Love you.
"I never though I'd fall for you as hard as I did"
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fireworks
July 12, 2009 @ 1:07 PM
After lunch/dinner we walked off to Mings Arcade for a karaoke session but the was no rooms and the next available slot is too late. So we decided to catch the fireworks instead. But Baby had to leave halfway because of family commitments. I was bump about it of course and he was pissed cause he hardly had any fun with the geng for so long and he has to leave halfway.
But he told us that he would meet us again so the rest of us went ahead to Suntec, had Starbucks for awhile, then off to the flyer as Razak wants to eat Popeye. Just as they wanted to order, the fireworks started but it took another 15 mins or so for another one to go off. And just as it was starting to drizzle then the fireworks officially started and seconds later it was pouring oh so heavily.
We chilled around the flyer waiting for the rain to subdue and Baby insisted that he come meet us but I told him I'll come to him, I don't want him to get caught in the rain with the horrific thunder and all.
Show sent me to AMK hub and I waited for Baby before we went off to meet his sisters for supper at Marsiling. They ordered chilli crab but I was so full by the time having had Sakura, Starbucks and Popeye.
After supper, headed home, settle down and sleep. haha.
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envy is a deadly sin
12:52 PM
The smallest act of kindness of just a simple display of affections like planting a kiss on my cheek would make such a difference to my day. Or just holding my hand when we are talking, grabbing my tiny head and kiss me on my forehead, rubbing your hands against mine no matter if its cold or warm, hold me close and constantly whispering sweet nothings to my ear followed by a big wet kiss. Whatever that will give tingles in my stomach.
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July 10, 2009 @ 5:50 PM
Tomorrow is a SATURDAY! I am going out to celebrate my sweetheart cousin's birthday and I get to spend time with Baby too.
Its been hard for you. You've had a rough week but all that is inevitable. I may not be able to experience how hard it is myself but I am always here ready to let you lean on my shoulder and lend you my listening ear. I know you are bored of it all already and I assure you that all this will be over soon, just bear that in mind but don't start counting down just yet.
I love you Baby, see you tmr!
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5:26 PM
Had BZE class assessment early in the morning. I managed to do it despite the time flying by super fast. Had a three hour break till the next class so we had brunch at the canteen and played silly games to kill time, but by the last hour of break most of the girls are napping.
I went home with Ain, Ahmad and Ahmad's friend whom I keep on forgetting his name. Hilarious ride back home. Hug Ain goodbye when she alighted at Yew Tee, Ahmad and I alighted at CCK, bought curry chicken pie and walked home together. Ahmad took the bus at the bus stop, a walking distance from my block. I reached home, wash up here and there and plopped myself on the sofa to enjoy my pie.
Sweet sweet pie.
While waiting for my brother to come home from work so he could cut his birthday cake at the struck of midnight, Ma and I watched MJ's Public tribute on telly. Brother reached home at 12++, and by that time Ma and I was bawling our eyes out thanks to the speech made by MJ's brother and daughter and decided that we should just cut the cake the next night.
Who knew I would cry for MJ. Who knew his death would left an impact in so many people. I mean, he's been dead for two weeks and it has only dawned on me now. The world has lost a great entertainer. Rest in peace MJ and my condolences to his bereaved family.
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July 6, 2009 @ 9:18 PM
Like anybody else, I have unspoken expectations. Like a book, you have to read between the lines before you could understand. But most of the time, the empty spaces between the lines are misinterpreted.
Then everything would just be a mistake, a regret. One day, pain will be foreign to us.
At times it will be nice for you to just hold me for a second, your lips on my forehead and fingers interlocking mine all because you want to not because you have to. Because,
too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
-Leo Buscaglia
On another note, school reopens today. Feels good to see the familiar faces again. Every thing's the same. More datelines to meet, more mugging. Plus walking to school might help burn some fats that I accumulated during the term break.
Labels: i am totally losing it, whatever it is.
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July 5, 2009 @ 4:07 PM
I am lazy to blog actually but I am blogging anyway. The irony.
Went out yesterday night, with Baby and his family; aunt, uncle, sister and cousins to be exact. They went bowling and then a late supper. I reached home roughly at 3.30 in the morning.
Woke up today feeling shagged and knowing that school is starting tomorrow is not cool at all. Now its raining, Baby is sleeping and I want to keep myself busy.
auf Wiedersehen.
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July 3, 2009 @ 3:00 PM
Smittened.
[insert couple picture here] because blogger the bloody CANNOT upload the picture!
But anywho, happy 53rd monthsary baby. People have told me countless times that, NS is the hardest trying times for couples and I second that with an instant. I may not know how hard it really is, but I want you to know that no matter what happens, I will always be here for you.
I love you sweetheart.
♥
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