March 30, 2009 @ 11:06 PM
It still hasn't dawn on me yet that in a few weeks time, I'm gonna be in a new school, new environment. I'm excited but at the same time I'm petrified. Its all mixed up together like a concoction gone wrong.
Met Dinah and Achap soon after, went to town. Eat, took pictures, went window shopping at Paragon, checked out some shops for Ain's shoe and a little fun at Toys 'R' Us. *alien voice*. Next was Heeren,window shopped some more, Achap bought A Flesh Imp Tshirt, walk around, went to Cineleisure. Ate ice-cream, took some more pictures then its going home time.
I was tired, nonetheless. Then Baby came over, spend some time with him and that's about it.
*photos will soon be updated, both the Sentosa outing and Town outing.
Labels: cocktail or martini?
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Party People
March 29, 2009 @ 1:31 PM
Yesterday was effing awwwwwsome! Went to Sentosa with Kak Desi darling and Nowreen sayang. *laughs* We met at 1030hrs but settled down at Sentosa at 1330hrs. That's because we went to buy Nowreen's bikini top and window shopped for awhile before buying snacks at VivoMart.
Besides the stuffy monorail ride,the day was swell. We took the tram to Palawan just to go to 7/11 then we walked to Tanjong beach 'cause we wanted a quiet place instead of the hassle and bustle at Palawan. Oh oh,we got a buggy ride from this man when we were walking half way. It was so awesome. Settled down at the beach, tanned, talk, laugh, take pictures then its off to the waters.
Being in the water was the greatest part of the day. And there was lots of pet dogs there, and one puppy came up to us, while I was stroking it, it went on sniffing Kak Desi's leg. Hilarious. Then we pack up, freshen up and head to Vivo to meet the guys. Show arrive first, then Baby, then Razak. We eat, they smoke, we chilled. We chilled at the rooftop and played this exciting game, so funny. After a good dosage of laughter, we head home. I headed home with a smile on my face 'cause I always have a great time with them.
And I go my phone ; LG KS 360
*Syngs,let's do that again aye? Just the three of us. Love you both.
**Pictures will be up soon and Nowreen I'll send it to you a.s.a.p ok?
Labels: awwwwwwsome
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March 27, 2009 @ 11:19 PM
Things just love to go way out of line for me today. Everything is just, well, fucked up. I was looking forward to get myself a new phone, the one that I always wanted since last year, today because lately this current phone of mine is being a complete ass.
But apparently a specific someone had to use my phone money to pay for his overdue rent. I just don't get it, you work six days a week, more than eight hours a day, surely you'd earn more than enough to pay your monthly rent. I wonder where did all your effing earnings go? What? Did you donate it all to charity or are you so stingy that you can't spend that money at all just to keep your job effing alive?
But before that Mum called to say that the phone is currently out of stock and will only be able to receive it tomorrow (I've pre-ordered it). I'm not bummed about that, I mean I can wait a day but it all came at the wrong time. But as much as I want to glue my butt to the sofa, I had to go to the bank and deposits Aunt's money.
And to put the final cherry on top, Baby & I was getting at each other's throat. Blagh. I was mad & the scorching hot weather didn't help at all. I swear if anyone would step on my toes just now, I would have blasted their brains out. Assholes. But don't worry, I've apologized to Baby for being a P'hole & all.
*sorry for the vulgarities, as you can see, I was pissed.
Labels: anytime now.
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March 25, 2009 @ 10:48 PM
The wounds may have healed but the scars will stay forever.
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March 24, 2009 @ 9:49 PM
My day started out pretty mundane, was slacking at Aunt's place. Visiting Md.Haziq since I haven't seen him for quite sometime. Ohh, he got a new bike the ones big enough for him to ride and with generated batteries. Ohh ohh and its PINK in colour, that's just hilarious. Unfortunately,he would just sit on in but won't ride it 'cause he's afraid of the noise it makes.
Then Fafa called and asked me if I could meet her. She was suppose to meet Fadfad but he couldn't make it at the very last minute due to some circumstances. So, I told her to come over to my place while I walked back to change. She jolted me from my seat when she said that she wanted to go to town to eat. But I managed to convince her that we should just go to IMM instead.
We did, and lunched at Fish & Co. Fafa had New York Fish & Chips while I had Peri Peri Prawns. Fafa's fish was HUGE and my prawns was delicious. Soon after, we went to Esprit and I saw this pretty dress, I'm so gonna get it when my pay comes in. Soon after we made our way out from there. Head down to Lot I went to meet Liza to ask about my pay then head home.
* Sentosa with The Usual Suspects this Saturday. Hope it won't get cancelled. :)
Labels: Sentosa
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Ecstasy
March 22, 2009 @ 7:18 PM
On the other hand, my Sunday isn't that great. My head throbs incessantly and it still does, it hurts whenever I turn/look to my left and now I'm nauseous. Blagh. I'm sick to my stomach and Panadols doesn't make it any better at all. Double blagh. I'm tired, I want to sleep now. Bye.
*Will post Baby's POP photo's soon & I'm still waiting for our next B&J's date my dear.
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Cheers.
March 19, 2009 @ 2:54 PM
I watched some cheer videos at youtube yesterday and it made me realise how much I missed cheering. I miss those training sessions with the mates,their funny little antics and how we would get on each other's nerves and laugh about it later. I miss being tossed around every time we tried something new where Indri and I would be the main 'flying' guinea pigs. Haha. Oh, I miss flying.
I always look forward to a great time when I'm with them. I miss our time training hard together for a competition/performance. I miss the times where we'd hold hands and pray each time before we step onto the competition mat, where our hearts would beat as one with anticipation, and those adrenaline rush each time our feet step on the competition mat and the get into position waiting for the song to start.
And each time the song starts all our stage fright would be gone and all we could think about is having fun and let everything fall in place. Even if some of the stunts were unsuccessful,we would cheer each other on. And each time we would leave the competition mat with such satisfaction. Win or lose, we always have great time.
To sum it up, I miss being a cheerleader.
*Sonix, let's get together sometime and reminisce about the fun times we had with each other,okay? I love you all. ♥
I always look forward to a great time when I'm with them. I miss our time training hard together for a competition/performance. I miss the times where we'd hold hands and pray each time before we step onto the competition mat, where our hearts would beat as one with anticipation, and those adrenaline rush each time our feet step on the competition mat and the get into position waiting for the song to start.
And each time the song starts all our stage fright would be gone and all we could think about is having fun and let everything fall in place. Even if some of the stunts were unsuccessful,we would cheer each other on. And each time we would leave the competition mat with such satisfaction. Win or lose, we always have great time.
To sum it up, I miss being a cheerleader.
*Sonix, let's get together sometime and reminisce about the fun times we had with each other,okay? I love you all. ♥
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Labels: the littlest things
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March 17, 2009 @ 3:05 PM
Babylove, I know I'm not gonna be there tomorrow (18march09) for your POP,
but I want you to always know that you have my support
and I'll be always be in your heart like you are in mine.
I love you much,darl.
Best of luck to you.
Muacks.
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Weekend Sore
March 16, 2009 @ 10:30 AM
Yesterday(15march09), Baby text me at 0920hrs and told me to meet him at the block behind his as we're going jogging at 0945hrs. Genius, I told him you just woke me up,25 mins is not enough. So I rushed through shower, get dress and hurried down to meet Baby. When I arrived, Din have not so I got time to catch my breathe.
Frankly,I thought I had the stamina to jog but I was wrong. Its been a long time since I exercise ever since cheer ended. So my idea of exercising was defined as shopping or lazing around at home. I started out strong the first few minutes but was left behind by those two dudes and before I know it I was walking. When they reached point B, I was still a quater away. Jeez. And don't even get me started when its time to jog back from point B to point A. Half way through, I brisked walk with Baby and I was babbling alone. About Mr. Ribena and Ms. Peach and how my heart would stop and I would be left there to die and rot while Baby would continue jogging. Haha,melodramatic much. No,worries I made back to point A alive and sane enough. Phew. It was tiring but I never regret tagging along for the jog.
After jogging we(baby,din and myself) chilled at the void deck and talk. Soon I have to go 'cause I have to attend a wedding invitation with the family. I wasn't keen on going but Babygirl(kak desi) would be there and I miss her so therefore I went. As usual I was the last one to get ready, believe me, I had to do my make-up in the cab itself.
Yadaa-yadaa-yadaa. After the wedding, I went to Granny's place then off to IMM with Babygirl and her family,shop then head back to her place. I spent the night there and woke up with my legs and back feeling sore. Still felling sore, here I am at Babygirl's place while she is at work. :) .
Labels: heels can never be a regret.
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March 15, 2009 @ 12:50 AM
Please just tell that you are if you're meeting her. Don't lie or hide it from me cause its not like I'm gonna stop you from doing so. I need you to trust me. Trust me when I said that I've moved on, that she doesn't bother me or hurt me anymore. I'm not mad and I never will be. Just don't hide the truth fom me anymore okay? You should give me credit that I can still be in the same room as she is and not trying to strangle her. :)
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Velvet Road
March 14, 2009 @ 11:20 PM
There isn't much there but the prices of Adidas/Puma/Nike Bags, watches and all are a freaking bargain. (thank you recession,but be over soon.) I have to constantly remind myself that I'm there to get myself the needed school shoe. Ohh,controlling the urge to buy the things there ain't easy at all. But I'm on a tight budget this month. What to do.
Thus, I bought a black Puma shoe. I wanted another design but there wasn't any in my size. Curses my tiny feet. If only feet would grow a tinsy bit for all the eating. Not only can I easily find sizes but it gives me a reason to shoe shop. Haha.
We went for dinner after that, dined at this cafe which I don't even know what its called. I ordered fish porridge and they gave me rice and soup combined. You call that porridge,mother-eff you. After dinner,we made our way to my void deck,chilled before going home.
Ohh,yesterday while watching Survivor, I tasted blood in my mouth. Before I knew it, I was spitting blood. No,I'm not internally bleeding or whatsoever,I think. I guess my gums just decided to bleed for no reason. But I hope nothing's wrong with me, eg: few months back I suffered incessant headaches and sharp chest pains. There was also a time where it started out as stomach cramp but the pain escalated till I couldn't move. I wonder what's the problem is but yet I refuse the doctor. -_- .
Labels: Bargain Schmagain
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Apology
March 13, 2009 @ 6:15 PM
Lies Schmies. I've moved on & I'm doing fine really,my dear. I can jolly well handle the truth. You had the chance to tell me but you chose not to. Don't you think I'd find out sooner or later & wouldn't it hurt a little less?
I know you're trying to protect me and trying not to hurt me but wouldn't it be better that I'd hear it from you than to find out on my own? I'm trying to let you see that I do trust you a whole lot and you're free to do whatever but recurring from the past incident we went through with her,no webs are allowed to be spin. I'm sorry.
My dear friends, I'm sorry if I hurt you in my previous post. But that's just the brutal truth. Just know that I always love you all and I treasure our friendship. Once again,apology.
Labels: street smart.
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March 11, 2009 @ 4:15 PM
Friends.
After what I've been through,what I've struggled with lately, I'm beginning to see things clearly. Baby,you were always there for me, all the way through & I can never thank you enough. I love you.
One thing came after another leaving me with so much doubt and letting me learn at the same time. This time, I didn't let Baby in the situation that much. I'm sorry but I know he'd be worried and I don't want him to. Maybe I just need to sort this out on my own.
Maybe its just another phase, I don't know, or maybe this is just the way its suppose to be. But I hope it'll pass soon & let me move on. I don't want to lose anything/anyone but I guess I have to let it go, somehow, cause it gives me goosebumps everytime I think about it.
Perhaps the answer is right here, infront of me and I'm just not seeing it. Not because I don't want to because I'm afraid to. I don't know, everything's just messed up.
Oh dear God, tell me, should I stick around for more?
After what I've been through,what I've struggled with lately, I'm beginning to see things clearly. Baby,you were always there for me, all the way through & I can never thank you enough. I love you.
One thing came after another leaving me with so much doubt and letting me learn at the same time. This time, I didn't let Baby in the situation that much. I'm sorry but I know he'd be worried and I don't want him to. Maybe I just need to sort this out on my own.
Maybe its just another phase, I don't know, or maybe this is just the way its suppose to be. But I hope it'll pass soon & let me move on. I don't want to lose anything/anyone but I guess I have to let it go, somehow, cause it gives me goosebumps everytime I think about it.
Perhaps the answer is right here, infront of me and I'm just not seeing it. Not because I don't want to because I'm afraid to. I don't know, everything's just messed up.
Oh dear God, tell me, should I stick around for more?
Labels: My dear friends.
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March 8, 2009 @ 7:06 PM
Everytime you put your arms around me,
I felt a burst of pure happiness and everytime,
I have to remind myself that this was temporary.
It was surprising, the pleasure of a simple touch.
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March 6, 2009 @ 7:00 PM
Its that sucky feeling again. I hate it. Why? I'm tired,exhausted,beat. Stop it,stop it with the lies. Instincts or whatevershit,just make the messy feeling go away.
Tell me,what is love? Who is love? Why does it burn? Help me love myself again,help me love you 'cause everything seem so bleak now. Where is the f*cking light at the end of the tunnel? And why is it so hard to get a grip on trust?
I thought you went away,for good. 'Cause for once I was happy, I was on top of the world. Why d'you have to come back and haunt me when I'm awake, still, and make me cry just so I can fall asleep? Its hard finding it all bittersweet.
Why would you make my heart go faster every time it skips a beat, making me so sick to my stomach? You build me up so high and crash me down so hard on the cold hard ground?
Just once let me scream till my throat's sore,till my lungs run out of air and till my fears disappear? 'Cause everytime I want to,you pull me back.
Labels: Who is love?
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March 5, 2009 @ 8:13 PM
DELILAH.
I woke up to the morning shrieking of old ladies seemingly talking at the void deck. Yes, void deck aunties can be very loud, given the choice that I live on the second storey.
Well,upon reading Syam's recent post about friendship,it suddenly hit me. The truth has position itself in my brain and clear my eyes from my own delusion. There was so much truth in that post & it was up to me to believe it or not.
I miss waking up to the early morning,getting ready to meet my friends before heading to school together,those occasional morning talks on the cold classroom floors,those idling moments whenever there's no teachers or lesson.
The warm comforts of that seem to be fading away slowly. Other than occasional meet-ups,everyone seems to be busy & time seems so short. Soon the next phase of after post-secondary holidays will start and everyone will walk on their own strings of line.
To make matters worst,I'm getting tired of it. So much so that sooner later, no matter how much I don't want to give up, I would not even try to bother anymore.
Whatever happened to the ones who would always call or text me, just to know how I'm doing and then talk for hours about random stuffs or the ones who would tell me everything that happened every now & then or the ones who would try so hard to convince me that everything would stay the same no matter what?
What ever happen to all that?
*if you feel bad after reading this post,don't bother.
i love you still.
I woke up to the morning shrieking of old ladies seemingly talking at the void deck. Yes, void deck aunties can be very loud, given the choice that I live on the second storey.
Well,upon reading Syam's recent post about friendship,it suddenly hit me. The truth has position itself in my brain and clear my eyes from my own delusion. There was so much truth in that post & it was up to me to believe it or not.
I miss waking up to the early morning,getting ready to meet my friends before heading to school together,those occasional morning talks on the cold classroom floors,those idling moments whenever there's no teachers or lesson.
The warm comforts of that seem to be fading away slowly. Other than occasional meet-ups,everyone seems to be busy & time seems so short. Soon the next phase of after post-secondary holidays will start and everyone will walk on their own strings of line.
To make matters worst,I'm getting tired of it. So much so that sooner later, no matter how much I don't want to give up, I would not even try to bother anymore.
Whatever happened to the ones who would always call or text me, just to know how I'm doing and then talk for hours about random stuffs or the ones who would tell me everything that happened every now & then or the ones who would try so hard to convince me that everything would stay the same no matter what?
What ever happen to all that?
*if you feel bad after reading this post,don't bother.
i love you still.
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March 3, 2009 @ 3:58 PM
I'm being a bigger person and yes it feels good.
Baby,happy 49th month-niversary.
I LOVE YOU. <3
Labels: sweet sweet love.
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March 1, 2009 @ 1:17 PM
GOODBYE FEBRUARY,HELLO MARCH.
Last Saturday of February,the rain rained on my parade. But it doesn't stop me from enjoying myself. Yea,its been a wonderful February. One that I will never forget. I had the best love, the best Valentines and the best of memories.
Now lets welcome March with a bang and hope it will be better.
On another note. You might think that its easy for me,having you serving the nation.
Everyone keeps asking me the same ol' question and everytime, I'll just reply with a simple smile. You might think I'm getting use having to meet you only once or twice a week,but I never did.
Don't get me wrong,I love it everytime we meet & I would secretly wish that time would stop and let us savour our time together,given the situation that we're in. (you know,i know) I was so used, seeing you almost everyday. Adjusting to something like this isn't as simple as blinking your eyes. I love you dearly and I know you love me too.
I know you know its not easy for me but I really want you to know that I'm trying my best to make the best of it. I'm trying my best not to put you in a difficult spot,my best to make you feel comfortable,my best not to make you angry and my best be the one that you want me to be.
Lotsa love, E.
Labels: I'm a dreamer and you're my dream.
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