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never again
July 29, 2010 @ 9:17 PM


Everybody is going to get hurt some way or another. Everybody is going to get their heart broken one way or another. There are so many other ways to break my heart, never did I expect that you would do it this way. I battled weeks and weeks trying to delude myself from the feeling I've been getting. I've been trying so hard to prove you wrong but the truth smacks me so hard I'm still finding it hard to get up.

If you could see how much I'm breaking inside after what you did to me, I wish you would. If I could cut myself open and show how my beating heart is struggling to find a pace, I would. If you could see that crying out loud does not really makes me feel better, I wish you could. I'm finding it hard to grasp your reasons. I'm finding hard to believe the words you speak. If only looking into your eyes won't break me any deeper. 

I don't have the strength to do this neither do I have the strength to let you go. Just give me time. 


xoxo ♥
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Dreamcatchers
July 26, 2010 @ 11:11 AM
Dreams. Are they the doings of our sub-concious mind or are they premonitions? It is said that they are usually the opposites of reality. We all know the harsh truth about reality, then again why do we still have nightmares? Is it a way to tell us that something good is going to come out of it(nightmares)? Maybe it is the doings of our sub-concious mind. We worry too much, we ponder too much so on and so forth, with the things marinating at the back of our heads, its hard to feign that those dreams comes from nowhere. Perhaps it is caused by what we went through in reality. Sometimes dreams can shake us so hard it stays on our minds even when we are wide awake. We are left going on throughout the day thinking about it. Sometimes it felt so real, we woke up in disbelief and we spent a few minutes laying on the bed, staring aimlessly at the ceiling recalling what we dreamt of while trying to figure out what it really meant.


Surprisingly though, we as humans would then miracuously go about our daily lives like nothing ever matters. And as night begins to fall we prepare ourselves for another adventure whether we are in it or not.  Because no matter what we believe dreams are, at the end of the day it might and will always be a dream. Unless we believe that dreams are as real as the reality.


xoxo
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Somewhere out there
July 19, 2010 @ 9:43 PM


They say the answers we are looking for are usually inside of us. We just need to look for it and if we look hard enough, we would find it. Sometimes the answers are right in front of us, we are just to blinded to see. However, here's the thing I do not understand, IRONY. how can the answers that we hard looking for be so hard to find when it is usually right under our nose the whole time. Perhaps as I mentioned above, we are too blinded by other things that we thought are the answers we are looking for all along. But why do we have to spent time, time that can be spent on something important, looking for answers that might be infront of us or might never have existed int he first place. Maybe I'm naive but I'm dire straits for answers. Patience I have but time not so much, because I'll barely have time to figure out what I need to if I'm constantly blinded by what it seems to be what I'm looking for when there is always a better answers out there.


xoxo
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take my hand
July 16, 2010 @ 3:56 PM

First of all, I want to apologize for not updating this space for quite some time. I know most of my previous post has been very depressing but I'm doing good now.


Things are slowly falling into place even if its different from how it used to be. It may seem slow but I just want to take things one step at a time. Let nature  takes its course. 


I was told and it's etched in my mind that nobody knows how our future is going to turn out, who we are going to end up with or whether are we the right one for the other. I can't control the future but if there is one thing I can control is the way I steer the wheel. The decisions I make and the choices I choose from, whether it is a mistake or not, at the end of the day it's a learning point.


xoxo

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July 8, 2010 @ 8:15 PM
I have a few post saved as draft. Will post it all up soon. Till then.

xoxo
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