goddamnit.
August 8, 2009 @ 11:01 AM
I've had enough. Seriously. This will be the final time, because it has drained my energy which I feel should be wasted on something much more important that this piece of crap. First of all, I don't need to be told "stop it" because I started nothing. Do not blame me for making this shit worst blame your best-est friend who can't seem to keep shut and cause all this drama, I'm just playing along with it. That is what you want right?
I'm done now.
Honestly, school now is like a shithole. Its so frustrating to make do with the irritating environment but at least I have the girls there and so much more than to just waste away school just because of some so-called-drama. And honestly, the class was never untied before, what makes you think it would be now. And losing you, as whatever you claim we were, will never affect me. And oh, it doesn't concern you on how I want to entertain this. I can blog about it, I can publish in the paper or I can use the loudhailer.
Labels: *pardon me for the angry posts lately.
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painkillers
August 6, 2009 @ 8:09 PM
Regarding my previous post, to whoever that feels the sting, I am not going to be sorry. Yes,I AM NOT! If you know your conscience is clear then you have nothing to worry about. All this drama is over rated and the only reason I'm reacting is because it's getting very annoying day by day. It's stepping on my last nerves but I'm patient enough to know that worrying about this little fragments of life shittiest side is a waste of time. I live my life the way I wanted it to be, I can cry if I want to, I can laugh if I want to and I can and will do whatever I want. I don't need you to worry about that.
Plus this is my space so respect it like I respect yours. I can and will rant bout anything I want, it does not concern you. Leave this space if you want to because I DON'T CARE!
Moving on, today was like mentally exhausting for me, but then again I'm always mentally exhausted come Thursday. Had lunch with the girls at PHut, laughing here and there. Entertaining Humai's crazy antics. Tomorrow is like a waste of time going to school. Four hours of doing basically nothing but unfortunately. Blagh! But I will be meeting Atiq tomorrow, maybe. Weekends are fully booked, might be going out and spend some time with Baby then will head off to granny's place. Come Sunday, we will be celebrating her birthday which is supposedly today with a small family gathering. Steamboat baybeh! Can't wait to meet my beloved cousin and the rest of the family.
And before I go off, here's to Dad & Granny! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TWO! I love you both even though I don't always say it.
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August 5, 2009 @ 10:41 PM
Pretty face & the ugly truth.
My laughing gases in school plus Nadiah, Maisarah and Azreen who are not in the picture. They are the ones who kept me true in school and help me restrain myself from hurting people, if you know what I mean. I had the most of fun in school whenever I'm around them. They are like my comfort zone.
Especially now when some of the people are getting so freaking irritating, FUCKING IRRITATING I tell you! Pardon me for my French, but come on.
You keep saying you've had enough, saying all kind of shits, trying to be so indirect. If you really meant what you said then you wouldn't dwell on it anymore and if you're brave enough to insult me then please pick up your balls and say it to my face. Oh please, I've had all sorts of people saying all kind of shits behind my back so its not surprising to me at all, because we all know how easy it is to judge and hate someone in an instant. Stop screaming around acting like some kind of 5 year old trying to get all sorts of attention. Then again, maybe that is your motive, to get all that unnecessary attention and letting others pick up your slack. Don't you know that its a disgrace. To some of us who are sane enough its very insulting. You do the math dear, where will all that get you?
Labels: baby find this annoying too.
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as I lay in solitude
10:06 PM
We were on top of the world, standing on the peak with teetering toes, holding hands. One slight move and its suicidal. As we all know, love is a riddle and up till now, 54 months and counting, I am still trying to figure everything out. It was never easy as we all know it. But when everything is going so smoothly, all we ever wanted was time to stop.
I love you baby and without any doubt you that I'll be there for you. Its just up to you whether you are willing to open up to me.
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August 4, 2009 @ 9:16 PM
I had a long day mostly because of waiting. Instead of BZE some of the girls and I had to go for an interview. A very long wait but thankfully it was a very relax interview, a mass interview. After the interview I rushed off with Jannah because I had to go to aunt's place and meet grandma for awhile. A funny ride back home. Jannah and I laughed at the most random things. Reached home completely shagged. Checked on a few things here then I want to go complete my assignments before having my much needed rest for the day.
bye now!
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still lovedrunk
August 3, 2009 @ 9:01 PM
Blurry eyes & Hot sweat.
Work was hilarious yesterday, laughed non-stop and reached home feeling shagged. Needless to say, I laughed my ass off the whole week through. Sampai semput eh Jannah? haha. This does not include the geng, if we were to meet, I'm sure I'll be short of breath too.
Not surprisingly, I started my day, well, laughing. Thanks to the girls. Good way to start the morning aye? What is also not surprising about Mondays are the dry as ever lessons. It may not bore me to death but it bore me enough to get me to sleep, which I know I'm not suppose to. Then waking up to join the laughing. Sometimes I wonder where in hell do I get all that energy to continue laughing and do all sorts of crazy whatnot with the girls even after hours of school.
Nothing special happen in school today, just the usual. Except that ite bishan decided to open up a cheer squad, in which I was seriously contemplating whether or not I should sign up. But in the end I decided not to. I mean, for all of you that knows me , cheerleading is my passion and its a bummer that Sonix has to close down. I decided not to because I don't want to join a squad where more than half of my heart will not be in.
Therefore here's a newsflash for whoever that is interested;
SONIX IS IN THE PROCESS OF RE-OPENING AND IN THE FUNDAMENTALS OF RECRUITING BE IT IN MANPOWER AND RESOURCES.
IF YOU ARE INTERESTED PLEASE PM ME. THANKS.
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August 1, 2009 @ 10:03 PM
Saturday Night.
time check: 10.04pm
Home early this Saturday night. I went to Baby's this afternoon, chilled before he sent me home. Got home, got ready, had an impromptu photo shoot whilst waiting for Baby to come and pick me up. We went on to visit his grandmother today, his ever so cute grandmother and aunt. While eating the ever so spicy but nice dish his grandmother made, she talked about the nenek keropok and all other sorts of whatnot. I was scared of course, you know me. But I managed not to squeal. After lunch cum dinner we chilled for awhile, talk to his grandma then its off to meet his friends. Blah blah blah, he sent me off before heading to his friend's kenduri.
Md Haziq was at my place when I reached home. Miss that little munchkin who never seem to grow in size. As usual, I had a fun when he's around. Here's something I find very funny.
translated.
haziq: cha, there's so many guitar. (pointing to the bag filled with my dad's soccer balls)
me: huh? guitar? ball lar.
haziq: ah, ball. what lar icha! ball lar not guitar.
(insinuating that i was wrong)
me: ahh? okay lar. sorry sorry. my fault. (still trying not to burst into laughter)
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