Bitter Bites
March 16, 2011 @ 3:47 PM
It bothers me that I have become such a bitter person. It is eating me up inside. I don't want to be so bitter anymore. I dont want to be overwhelmed by this dark soul builiding up inside of me. It scares me that sometimes I show no mercy. I need that light in my soul again. I want to feel happy again. I've been so unhappy that it sucks every joy out left in me. I don't want to be this paranoid, confuse person that I am right now. I don't want to be a sadistic anymore. Help me.
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Part Two
March 5, 2011 @ 9:52 PM
Like I mentioned on the previous post (read: for the record), I managed to take more than just knowledge from my time in ITE. I have gotten the best thing I could ever asked for and that is my friends, my girls especially. I am sure that this is not just a passe, that my friendship with them will go on even beyond the walls of school. We have been through dramas after dramas, bitch fights and a lot more to get to where we are now, to be who we are now, together.
We cannot escape the reality of school, no matter how hard we try to avoid it or how trivial the matter is, we have to face it. It was not always smooth sailing when it comes to friends in school, we all know how important freindships are to me and how I do not take them lightly. Its either you stay or you go. No here and there, somewhere in between. But I'm glad I found these girls for me to call friends. Truth to be told, I never did expect that the five of us would end up together given the circumstances. I never did expect to find a group of people that I could easily depend on. But as I always said, everything will fall into place eventually. And with us as prove, it actually did.
So this is dedicated to my girls also known as, kambs, thank you for having my back when I need you. Thank you for creating such fond memories with me. I am going to miss seeing you girls everyday, laughing our ass off at the silliest things, creating something out of nothing (mostly nonsense). I am going to miss the pranking we do to people, even to each other. I am going to miss the weirds thing that we talk about, the weird way we talk to each other. I am going to miss the monopoly deals, the feast we have, the endless photo taking (read: mostly ruining photos of others). I am going to miss the random singing, the random dancing and everything else in between. Thank you for being a part of my journey and for making it worth the while. I know that we will not end here, there will be more days to come. And girls, you know I am always here if you need me. Always have and always will.
xoxo ♥
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For The Record
March 4, 2011 @ 5:47 PM
I have been meaning to put up this post for some time but when would be better time if it wasn't the day itself right?
Today officially marks the day ISB'09 graduates from ITE Bishan. Two years have definitely passed by pretty fast. The journey has been such an experience that I am proud to say that I have been there. My journey in ITE is one that I would never forget. I have been through a whole lot of shit during my stint there but it has taught me a whole lot too. I am proud to say that a part of what I am now is thanks to ITE. There may be times when I was a little too playful than I should have, a little too clouded than I should have but I am proud that I managed to complete everything that I am ought to and did better than what I thought I could. I shall not deny that I worked my ass off for every module, I did the best I could to succeed. I wanted to show others who never believed in me that I could do it, I could even surpassed their expectations of me. But I soon learnt that, I do not need to prove to anyone else anything at all. I did this, as hard as I did and I proved to myself that I could do it. And I did it. I achieved more than what I thought I would from it. And I am taking out a whole lot more than just education, than just knowledge. It has taught me so much valuable lessons that could not be taught anyway else. It has offered me so much than what I could ever asked for. It had also given me so much opportunities than one could ever asked for. I met so many people that believed in me.
Some may think that it's just ITE, what can I do and where I can I go with that qualification. Well, what I can say to that is, you have to be there to understand and appreciate the value of everything that will be offered.
Some may think that it's just ITE, what can I do and where I can I go with that qualification. Well, what I can say to that is, you have to be there to understand and appreciate the value of everything that will be offered.
Honestly, I had so much fun. I made friends that would probably last with me through a lifetime, safe to say. I made memories that might fade but if it comes back, it would instantly light up my day. Last but not least, I may not be able to change the perception of others towards ITE, but my journey there has definitely changed mine.
xoxo ♥
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Chained
February 26, 2011 @ 2:10 PM
Dear Mr Sentimiento,
You have been haunting me for so long now. Do you know how bitter I have become because of you? I hate that you have to come back every now and then. I hate that you have to keep haunting me and there is no way for me to stop you. Do you kow how painful it is for my heart to keep itself strong everytime you come around? It shouldn't hurt anymore but is does. I hate the fact that nobody understands how it feels to be hounded by you. I hate that I could not tell anyone the reason you ever existed because I am ashamed of you. It feels like you are chained to me ankle and you follow me every where I go. And if I managed to lose you for a while, you'd find other ways to come back to me. So I hate the fact that at the end of the day, you never fail to make me feel like a complete fool.
xoxo ♥
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A little thanks
February 6, 2011 @ 8:58 PM
You have been nothing but the best lately and I wish that it would stay this way forever. Its like you read the insides of my head. I love the way you hold my hand everywhere we go, the way you would look into my eyes and give me the sweetest smile after a while. I love the way you hang your arm over my shoulders and letting me lean in to you. I love the fact that you took your shirt of to wipe my hair dry because there wasn't any towel, the way you comb the ends of it and stroke it when its done. I love the way you kiss me on the nose, the way you willing shared your blanket with me. And I thank you for all the little things you did. For painstakingly sending and fetching me from work, for giving in to my weird cravings, for getting me breakfast, for cutting my food for me so I would have an easier time eating. Thank you for everything. I will make it up to you, I appreciate every thing you did.
xoxo ♥
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Sixth
February 3, 2011 @ 11:18 PM
I like how things work between us. I like how we do not need to constantly call on each other, how we do not need to talk on the phone for hours. I like how we would give each other random texts at any given point time of the day. I like how we would spend so much time together and would still look forward to a brand new day together I like our tiny little arguments, not so much of the big fights we had though.
I like how for six years, I have never been tired of you and every bit of you even if it annoys the living hell out of me. For six years already, you are still the one that flutters that little heart of mine. For six years, it still feels like it was yesterday when we started out. For six years, I managed to love you more than I never thought I could. Congratulations on our sixth sweetheart.
Much love,
Nurellisya Sahdon
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January 29, 2011 @ 1:01 PM
Everybody has pride and everybody wishfully hopes not to get their pride hurt. The other day, I was indirectly insulted of my English language. As pathetic as it sounds, insulting me of my English language hurts me. I don't mind people jokingly made comments about my language especially when it comes to my mother tongue. I mean I am not proud that my Malay is somewhere in between average and below. I am used to people jokingly, whether they mean it or not criticizing my Malay but I really do not like if people criticize my English. Do you think I want to suck especially at the language that is supposed to be second nature to me? I'm not trying to sound conceded and boast about how good my language is. I am open to correction, after all you learn best from your mistakes. I know my English is not as superb as yours but I am proud that it is above average. I really do not appreciate you looking me in the eye and criticize me of how my language is not good enough for you. I have worked hard to be where I am right now.
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