roses
February 5, 2010 @ 7:46 PM
Nice right the colour blue. My favourite colour. But.....
When it comes to roses, I prefer yellow. Yellow roses are my favoutite. :) Valentine's coming. Hint - hint. Hehe0 comments: leave a comment
no more straws left
7:15 PM
How does it feel to have your life re-enacted for you? Wait, copied seems to be the better word. I shall rephrase. How does it feel to have a copy of your life done by somebody else. How does it feel to have someone steal or copy your words, your ideas, your style, your definition of fun and then takes credit for it? How does feel to have to pick up other people's slack for them? How does it feel when they say that you never appreciate their effort when they are the ones eating up their own words?
I was never the petty sort, well a little part of me that is. When I don't like something, I either say it upfront or I keep giving them hints to make them realize or I just show them I'm annoyed and become a bitch that I already am. You know when things have gone too far, but what do you do when people keeps doing the things you do? As most of you know, I just celebrated my fifth year anniversary two days ago and I shall not deny that I was beyond ecstatic about it & I'm grateful for all the well wishes from my family and friends. But how do you feel when the next day you found that someone is also boasting about their love life , not just any someone, someone you hate. They too go on saying that they have had a fruitful five years when the facts are not even true at all. Bloody bitch. You know who you are. Isn't it really annoying to have them steal the words right out of your mouth?
No, that's not the end of it. School has really been a place I never look forward to except for the girls. They are the reason I show up and also because I care about my future. But how do you like it when you make all the way down to school, even though it's quite redundant, given the distant I have to travel just for a mere four hours of class. Then you have people wasting your time and have you pick up their slack. People who thinks they couldn't care less just because they think their head has got too big for their own good. You expect me to put in effort to make the hostile situation better, but there you go again doing things that proves me right. How would you like if you spend weeks cracking your head to do a project, you execute it well, then you have people taking the base of your ideas and take credit for it. A perfect example; baking cupcakes is the new in thing right? Yes, I am being sarcastic. I hope their conscience eat them alive. Come to think about it, it all started with one person, now I don't even think she is grateful for the times we backed her up.
Girls, I think we need to have a trademark chop. So people won't steal our ideas, our words, our games or even our stories.
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f'ing messed up
6:39 PM
With decisions come consequences, I know that. I think it's time I find something proper, something I look forward to. Something that is certain.
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five years
February 3, 2010 @ 12:00 AM
Today is my fifth anniversary. Five years. Above are some pictures of our gifts. Baby gave me a Swatch set; contains a watch and a notebook. I love it. I gave him a scrap book I made myself. We did not exactly celebrate grandly today because of time constraint, but we will make up for it. Saturday okay honey? Hopefully.
Five years. My God, who would have thought we could have come this far. Some journey it has been. The past years, no doubt there was some bad times but there are good times too. The past year especially was the hardest I've yet to go through. But we managed to surpass them, coming out of it stronger than ever I believe. Though they might still be some cracks here and there, a little scar here and there but it gives us a reason to push forward. I have a feeling that this year we will encounter a lot of hurdles; be it good ones or bad ones. This year might be the year that will possibly let us get a glimpse of our future ahead.
Honey, Happy Anniversary. I love you, always and forever.
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serenity
February 2, 2010 @ 11:25 PM
Life has been pretty hectic lately, so whenever I get to have some free time, it feels different. And so I usually catch up on some sleep. Most of my time are occupied by school, another part of it was by work and the little time I have left is use for my time to spend with friends and family. I think it's going good, that I am able to fit them in given the constraint but with decisions comes consequences. All that is taking a toll on my body, I get so restless. I swear I can get so tired I could sleep anywhere. Next thing you know you'll see my face at Stomp. hah *insidejoke*
I miss the Kapas Bebola Geng so much. Its been ages since we last hang out together, all six of us. Everyone gets so caught up with their own thing, we each forget time for fun. I miss having fun with them, each time ending the day with holes in our stomach. Talking from everything we could under the moon. We need some serious catching up. I miss my two best friends too. Desi Arisandi & Nowreen Khan, please free yourself from the hustle and bustle, come let's meet and catch up again.
I hope things would take it slow now, I don't want to get so caught up so much so till I forget to enjoy the little things in life.
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we belong
12:46 AM
I've been through bumpier roads I think I can surpass this. I know I can, I just don't know if I could handle it. I'm bracing myself because I know you're ready. You're tired of fighting, tired of putting up a brave front just because you have had enough of the drama. I know you aren't asking for a lot, just the simple things that matter. I know, I'm asking for them too. I know you just want some load off your shoulders and your chest, everybody has been pushing for it. But we can't stop what we've started, you taught me that. Whatever bumps we are going to face because of this, just remember baby, we chose this path, we gotta stick to it. We gotta fight for what we feel is right. You said that, remember?
Isn't it funny how the simplest things are the hardest things to get a hold of. No matter how lightly or how tightly we held on to it, either way it slips away if we are irresponsible. If we are too caught up unnecessarily, we miss the important things that pass us by.
Some people take things we yearn for, for granted. They take the little things we find hard to grasp, lightly. Only to realize what they have been missing and what they have lost when its gone.
btw, Happy Birthday Mum. Love you.
You've been the greatest. The strongest woman I know besides Granny.
You've been through a lot. Have a good one mummy.
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fresh air
February 1, 2010 @ 1:06 AM
Decided to get a new b.skin because I simply got tired of the previous one. It got really dull. This looks fresher, for now. So techni - simple. I like.
Saturday was well spent outside with a whole bunch of awesome people. Reached home at five in the morning, got some sleep then woke sweetie and myself up for work at eight-forty-five am for work at ten respectively. Work was bloody irritating. I'm sick and tired of it. I decided to hold on to that job for now though, since its my only source of income. But I also decided to find a much stable job when I graduate. & that seems like a long way to go still. o.o
I'm tired now, very sleepy but I'm waiting for my askar boy to call me. School tomorrow, feels like skipping but projects everywhere. Sigh. On another note, it's already February. How fast. Tomorrow is Mum's birthday and in two more days its my fifth year anniversary. In love I am so. haha
Well, till then honeys. xoxo
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