May 31, 2009 @ 1:20 PM
La respuesta yo.
I need a cure for my weakness.
I need to stop thinking too much.
I ponder far too many times.
I fear to question therefore,
I lack the answers.
Blame it on my part.
Labels: I'm sorry.
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May 30, 2009 @ 11:07 AM
Jennifer Love Hewitt. Is she hot or what?
I have been addicted to her hit tv series the Ghost Whisperer. I have watched all seasons. From one to three. I think there will be a fourth, I hope there will because season three ended quite abruptly. The show is so awesome that it keeps you wanting more. Yup, I want to know what will happen next. What will happen to her son (in the show). What does it mean when its said that he will get to do more then what she could?
See. See how it affects me. *laughs. Must be because of her alluring and mesmerising eyes
Floody Buck.
I hate having a fever, ON A FREAKING WEEKEND. I hate not being to breathe easily through my nose. I hate the party my head is having right now and I do not like, not even the slightest bit the way my eyes will burn every time I sneeze.
Medication isn't helping either, that's why I'm not taking any. I fear the risk that I might choke on a tablet and die. Well, I just hate being sick, period.
Labels: when are the hols coming?
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May 29, 2009 @ 3:54 PM
Seems like everyone is falling sick this days.
Watch out for zombie look alike people wondering the streets.
Labels: lovebug
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May 25, 2009 @ 9:56 PM
School started out okay. I was super tired in the morning. I think I yawned a gazillion times. Alright, that's a tad bit dramatic. The day went on quite smoothly.
Ohh, remember I said my school has a monkey. Well during LPD we had free time so we just slack around. Then on the opposite block a MONKEY was sitting on the ledge. Maisarah and Yen Ming went closer but they got chase by the monkey. *laughs. So funny.
On another note, you know how in any environment, be it in work, in school or where ever, there is always that someone you love to hate. The ones that deserve to be bitch slap, cursed and hit by a speeding car. The ones that is so insecure they speak so lowly of themselves to gain sympathy from others. Well that kind of people just irks me out. I can be all sugar & spice but when you step out of my line, you've just done it. You've cross the damn line. The line that defines where you stand in my eyes. Please don't let my petite size fool you.
If anyone feels offended or affronted by what I said, my apologies but this is my blog, I can say what the freaking hell I want.
Labels: up your asses.
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9:43 AM
Hello. I am blogging in LPD. *laughs. This is how bored I am.
Will prolly blog again tonight.
Photos of abg andi & kak shah's wedding will be updated as soon as I no longer feel like a lazy ass.
I wish them a safe flight to Phuket and I won't mind any goodies brought home. *laughs.
Labels: live long and prosper
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May 24, 2009 @ 11:13 AM
I just realize that I still have not done my assignments. I have yet to take it out from my bagpack let alone do it.
Jeez.
Been so caught up with so many things, I couldn't find time for myself.
p/s: i don't feel like going to school tmr.
Labels: painted nails.
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10:59 AM
I'll get over it. I always do. Eventually, somehow.
*Abg Andi & Kak Shah's wedding pictures will be update soon.
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May 22, 2009 @ 8:58 PM
Forgive me for my broken promises.
I thought I was strong enough to make it through today, to put up that brave front no matter how much I'm breaking inside because of my own mistake, just so that they would not pry.
But while trying to run away from it all, I broke down. I can't keep it together no matter how hard I held on.
I hate the thought that I could wake up without you in my life, I could not imagine not having you in my life.
I'm sorry I pushed you away. I'm sorry I made you so sick and tired of everything we ever had. I'm sorry I made you lose all hopes you ever had in me, in this relationship
Countless times, you said that you're sick and tired of helping me figure things out but this is our thing, our relationship, our happiness and we can't move on from this if we decided to figure this on our own.
So I ask, oh God is this some way for me to take his place?
Labels: battle field
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May 20, 2009 @ 10:37 PM
I am starting to dislike Wednesdays. Hate is too strong of a word.
Wednesdays are the reasons why I'm so lethargic by the end of the day and will continue to be the next day. Its the reason why I'm so short-tempered, so restless, so cranky and the reason my brain starts to function so slowly despite the fact that it might already be addled by the heat.
Believe me, by the time I reached home, threw my bag on my bed and plop myself to the couch.
Remember the days, in secondary school where I'd be half-asleep during Maths or Chemistry or even both? That was what I was like in PAC. My eyes felt so heavy and by the looks of my book, I think I was writing alien words. Not that I know if aliens write.
We watched The Kite Runner during LPD. A great controversial movie that will move you and have you sitting at the edge of your seat. It will have your tears sitting at the pocket of your eyes and made you smile and gawk at how cute the child actor was. It will make you see the world of war struck countries in a different light. Its a must watch.
I'm suppose to be revising but I'm very tired. I swear, tomorrow my body will be sore and the chunks will still be there.
Labels: if they only knew
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May 17, 2009 @ 5:12 PM
I think I need to stop procrastinating, wait wait, its I know. Its bad for my health, in ways that I, myself don't even know. *laughs. But, generally its bad.
However, I think I'm making progress. A slight progress. I actually finish all my assignments on time, well, almost all. But I did finish it. Give me some credit for that. I didn't start doing it the day before it was supposedly to be handed in. Even though it took me a week or two to complete my BZE Case Study and I have yet to finish my resume for LPD. But its something.
Right?
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May 15, 2009 @ 3:10 PM
I need some sleep. Long hours of school has drained most of my sugar level and assignments/projects are piling up like there's no tomorrow. I just want the holidays to start soon so I can sleep in all I want.
Had a debate on "Singapore is ungracious" few days back and I have to say, I somehow agree to that statement to a certain extent. Mere examples of ungracious behaviour that will make you feel uncomfortable? Just board the trains. There will be abundant examples.
Recounting from hours earlier when I was in the train going back home, a group of MINDEF (kids with special needs) boarded the train, a priority seat opposite the one I was sitting at was empty, I gave up mine and moved few seats down but then came a perfectly looking healthy woman who rushed to the empty P. Seat and sat there staring at the kids. Bear in mind there were empty seats down her aisle. I was affronted but I got over it.
Just when I thought my ride home was getting smoother, a man boarded the train and sat next to me. He smelt like someone who hasn't bathe for days. Luckily the next stop was mine. Trying hard not to looking so retch, I made it out of the train alive. *laughs.
Okay now, I want a nap.
Boyfriend, I miss you. *muah.
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May 13, 2009 @ 9:35 PM
Fatigue.
I went to school looking like a zombie. I was tired you see. My body is still adapting to the timing of school. Unlike secondary school where I have to wake up at 6am almost everyday, my current timetable has timing even I find it hard to comprehend. One day we start at 8 in the morning and the next we start at 12 noon. Tell me how to adapt?
School was okay today. Had Sports & Wellness which not surprisingly drained my energy. I was like a leaking pipe today, having to constantly replenish myself. The weather is a b*tch too. I think I burned a few pounds walking home under that treacherous weather.
We watched The Pursuit of Happiness during LPD today. Cool movie, quite funny but moving at the same time. I believe the purpose for watching that movie during LPD means that we have to figure out something regarding our life, but I was too dehydrated to think.
I reached home, completely shagged. Threw my bag on my bed, do all the necessities and I hit the sofa.
On a random note, I miss Dinah & Achap. Meet me soon guys,please. *puppy dog eyes*
I went to school looking like a zombie. I was tired you see. My body is still adapting to the timing of school. Unlike secondary school where I have to wake up at 6am almost everyday, my current timetable has timing even I find it hard to comprehend. One day we start at 8 in the morning and the next we start at 12 noon. Tell me how to adapt?
School was okay today. Had Sports & Wellness which not surprisingly drained my energy. I was like a leaking pipe today, having to constantly replenish myself. The weather is a b*tch too. I think I burned a few pounds walking home under that treacherous weather.
We watched The Pursuit of Happiness during LPD today. Cool movie, quite funny but moving at the same time. I believe the purpose for watching that movie during LPD means that we have to figure out something regarding our life, but I was too dehydrated to think.
I reached home, completely shagged. Threw my bag on my bed, do all the necessities and I hit the sofa.
On a random note, I miss Dinah & Achap. Meet me soon guys,please. *puppy dog eyes*
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May 11, 2009 @ 8:56 PM
I want to go to L.A, Hollywood.
Someone take me there!
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May 10, 2009 @ 5:48 PM
Shouldn't we be accepting the little imperfections of our signifiant other that complements our perfections? I didn't know tolerance plays a huge part.
I just want us to be like what we use to be.
I guess, like they say, the past is HISTORY.
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5:40 PM
I watched as you lay there beside me.
Eyes closed, your chest rising up and down.
I felt your pulse, beating, against mine.
How I wish, that would be forever.
Brushing my hand against your delicate skin.
Your eyes open, I saw your tender smile.
What I'd give to see that everyday.
Labels: buttered-flies
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4:14 PM
As mentioned above, we had another girls day out, my darlings and I. It was also in celebration of Nowreen' sayang's birthday.
I met Kak Desi first at Lot 1 and headed to Town. Nowreen hasn't arrive when we reached so we had lunch at Charles & Jr. (Carl's & Jr.) *inside joke. We were starving and munch down the food with as much etiquette as we possibly could. Waited and waited for Nowreen. For all that needs to know, most of us has punctuality issue. *laughs.
Met Nowreen, gave her the gifts we bought/made for her and then we walked around in Far East Plaza. I was looking for a new pair of shoe. No, no, this is a much needed shoe. After Far East, we headed to Lucky Plaza, hand in hand. Kak Desi wanted to buy her Gucci Envy Me perfume for herself and Hugo Boss for Razak. Went to nearly all the perfume stalls to search for Nowreen's 'Pure Seduction by Victoria Secrets'. After that we chilled and watched in envy at the beautiful Caucasian models coming in and out from the "Audi Fashion Festival" in front of Taka.
Headed to Wisma soon after. We went to Hula & Co. and tried on several outfits just for the sake of fun but apparently it wasn't fun at all because the clothing there are small albeit the fact that its all free size. Next it was Isetan 'cause Kak Desi wants to find her Mother's Day's gift for her mum and her colleague's birthday present. We went window shopping as well.
Ooh, this part is my favourite part of the day. We went into this cute boutique called Pepper Plus and tried on all sorts of clothes, hopping around in the fitting room, voicing out each other's opinions.
By the time it all ended, we were tired. All we needed was a place to sit and something refreshing. We sat, we talked we rest and after we are refreshed, we walked Nowreen to Cineleisure, she was meeting her 'guy friend' and Kak Desi and I headed towards the bus stop and board 190 home.
I had a great time with my girls, always. Can't wait for the next outing!
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May 8, 2009 @ 4:01 PM
The first half of my day went pretty well, then a storm suddenly hit me without prior notice.
He called, I was on my toes.
He was mad, I was on the edge.
His voice was loud, I was speechless.
He asked, I froze.
I was frantically tearing my insides apart to find the answer but I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak. My head was strong but my heart was weak. I was holding back the tears but I couldn't stop.
Putting on a brave front, trying hard to smile but my chapped lips felt so heavy. My stomach was churning and my heart was beating so fast and hard, I felt as if it wants to break free from me. I held on strong or at least I tried to be.
The ride home felt long, longer than it was suppose to be. With so much craziness surrounding me,I found it hard to breathe. I felt so alone and cold, metaphorically and literally. I lost myself in there, thinking.
For once I needed the heat, the warm, the Sun so badly. I needed it to make things real again and it did. That's when I realize that, I wasn't in any pain neither was I actually hurt. I was in the wrong. All that agony came from within me.
I nearly gave it all up. I thought I wasn't strong enough but then I realize, life would be much harder without you. You held on to this for so long. There are just times, when I looked into your eyes to find only grey. You're my air in life and I need you to live. However, at the same time, I felt that you deserve better, someone that will treat you right.
I'll give up my heart to you so you can live.
I'll let you rip my hearts out if it make the pain you feel go away.
I'll let you use me as a shield that will protect you from the harm.
I'll die for you.
I know its cliche but I'll do it if without any second guessing.
"God will never let you go through something that he knows you can't handle". - Fatin Hanani.
Labels: Edited
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May 7, 2009 @ 9:17 PM
It was nice but weird at the same time.
It felt so familiar but yet again, different.
Hearing you say I LOVE YOU is more than enough even though I yearn of things that seems so out of reach.
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8:55 PM
Close friends, Best friends.
The fine difference between them?
The wonders I have and the answers I lack.
Labels: poTAYto poTAto.
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May 6, 2009 @ 9:41 PM
WHISPERS.
It gets harder every time, everybody knows that but nobody really knows how hard we struggle to hold on and how hard we try to make it work.
I made a vow to MYSELF that I would never let anyone see me shed a tear. I will cry, that's inevitable, I will cry till my head hurts so bad, till my eyes swells up, my cheeks ache, till my lungs are on fire and till I fall asleep. But I'm gonna wake up the next day, wipe my tears and breathe, praying that it will be a better day.
I vowed not to make anymore empty promises lest I hurt you again because I broke your heart far too many times.
"We are from two different worlds", you said, and that jolted me out of my seat and in my mind I thought, "That's just what makes us perfect for each other" but I knew you weren't thinking the same. I guess love has made me blind. I know its unfair to you having to go through so much just to be with me and even though it hurts me, I know its hurting you even more, feeling so torn apart. I'm sorry I've been selfish.
Its been four years plus, 51 months to be exact. You said what we have is what we have and I know that you didn't mean that materially but emotionally as well. I won't lie, I'll grin with envy every time I see my cousin with her fiance but, what we have is what we have.
The anxiety is still there. Every time I call you on the phone, I get nervous. Every time it rings, my heart skips a beat faster and when you answered, my heart stops, waiting for your response. I'll listen to your tone of voice and if you sounded pissed, I'll feel so afraid and if there is that sense of joy in your voice, I'll heave a sigh of relief.
"There will come a day when you're gonna stand in front of me and cry your heart out, and I will never be able to help you, even if blood became your tears cause I'm sick and tired of it all".
Your words have been sitting at the back of my head everyday since you said that and eveyday I'll always be walking on toes, minding my every move. I've made you lose all hopes you had in me. I'm sorry.
Labels: I'm biting my tongue.
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May 5, 2009 @ 7:08 PM
The recent treacherous heat has resulted to bad migranes, chest pains and back aches.
Blagh.
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May 3, 2009 @ 5:15 PM
Baby, Happy 51st Monthsary. I ♥ you and this is for you.
Our love has brought us here.
My love I've put hand to ink, ink to page.
To you, I owe a little song to display, how I feel.
You have taken a little piece of me.
I'm not sure (if) you know,
I'm captivated, by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me,
So I wrote this song as a tribute to you.
Tonight we'll dance,
Do what we love, the best.
I know we'll never give only what's left,
Lets get this show on the road.
You have taken a little piece of me.
I'm not sure (if) you know,
I'm captivated by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me,
So I wrote this song as a tribute.
And I'll remember the moments we've shared,
Laughing and dancing without a care.
Knowing that I can't stop time now,
I want you to know, I'll always be there.
You have taken a little piece of me,
I'm captivated, by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me
So I wrote this song.
You have taken a little piece of me,
I'm captivated by the beauty you have shown.
The love, the passion you taught me.
So I wrote this song [x3]
To you.
P/S: Listen to my blog song.
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May 2, 2009 @ 4:29 PM
Some days we are on cloud nine while some days we have things getting out of line.
So, I go through life like a karate kid.
Labels: Mr Right
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May 1, 2009 @ 12:35 PM
I had a bucket of laughs yesterday. Like all my tiny laugh-lings have been behaving quitely all this while and decided to let loose yesterday. I laughed myself the whole day through, entertaining my friends.
At night, I met Kak Desi, Razak, Show and his friend and we lepak at this void deck. I had a ball with them, I always do everytime, with Green Tea bottles everywhere. Bf came later. The only thing missing was Nowreen syg and Blueberry Tea. *laughs.
What a great way to end April, and for those who had a sucky April, I hope May will be the better month. Cause' right now, I started my first of May with a bloody right eye thanks to my bloody contact lens.
Labels: am addicted to The White Tie Affair.
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