June 30, 2009 @ 7:24 PM
I've been experiencing this stupid migraine since god knows when, okay fine, this morning. It has been throbbing non-stop. Oh please, go and torture someone else's brain please. I am begging you.
My family, well Mom actually decided to record the tributes of the late Michael Jackson on the Starhub set-top box. And the entire household has been watching re-runs of the whatever it is that was recorded, from his younger days with the Jackson Five to his Top 10 moments to his music videos like Thriller, Billy Jean, Black or White and so on and so on.
The King of Pop may have left the world but apparently not the telly at my place.
Labels: thump thump thump
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June 29, 2009 @ 2:32 PM
I spent my day with my babyboyfriend. We had dinner at Pastamania then skip skip skip, we chilled around at the mall. It was a short day but it was awesome. He's starting his driving course today and that means - 5 days in camp = lesser time spent together = up to the weekends. I miss him already.
Chatted with Fafa yesterday. A hilarious chatting session. I miss her a fucking lot. I miss secondary school days a fucking lot too. I remember dozing off during Biology with Suhaiza and they only way to keep us awake was to use colored pens and doodle on our notes, but the distraction would only keep us awake for awhile.Then there was the times during Accounts lesson, I would end up walking around the class disturbing my classmates but there are days where I will stick to my sit and listen to my radio = Nurdinah Farhanah singing. hehehe.
Wahh, the comfort of being in those four walls in which anything you do, you'll hardly be judge. where the laughter are all genuine, where everyone and everything feels so right, well most of the time. I miss those days.
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June 28, 2009 @ 12:46 PM
Enjoy.
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11:45 AM
*yawn* I am up early in the morning because Baby called, he asked me to tag along with him to Johor. I didn't directly turn him down but he sound so sad and it made me feel really guilty. He's really good at reverse psychology, maybe because I've been doing it to him a lot.
I really wanna go on a date with him today before he starts his driving course tomorrow because when he does, it would be much harder for us to spend quality time together and it would only be up to the weekends, which also depends if there isn't any circumstances blocking our way.
Anyway, yesterday was awesome. Had a day out with the geng, only the four of us; Kak Desi, Nowreen, Show and I. Baby and Razak couldn't be there. While waiting for spiderpig, we went for our lunch just us girls at Fish & Co. The greatest lunch date with the girls up to date ever. Had the Seafood Platter. Awesome. We chatted while eating, everything from Barrack Obama to Michael Jackson and his tragic life to his sudden death. At the same time we were going trigger crazy with the dslr. Had dessert, the best chocolate cake ever tasted in my whole entire life, well so far.
Met Show, buy some drinks then we head off and walk to this place called 'SUICIDAL'. Chilled there, talk, go trigger crazy again. Sing sing sing. We had our own karaoke session there singing to Westlife and Michael Jackson's songs and whatnot. Potato chips were literally flying everywhere and green tea bottle were use as microphones. We had that place all to ourselves before a couple came. Then I wanted to pee so we made our way out from there. After pee-ing, we headed home. All feeling shagged.
It was a day well spent with the geng, every time. But it would be better if Baby and Razak would be there and it would be complete.
Okay, I want to bathe now, been watching Tribute to Michael Jackson on MTV since just now.
"you are not alone,i am here with you". Okay, da merepek.
Labels: blood on the dancefloor.
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June 26, 2009 @ 7:48 PM
I watched Transformers; Revenge of the Fallen today with Baby and Hairul. Watched the first screening at Lot 1.
It was well, mediocre. I would say worth the money spent on. Better effects than the first, better plot, awesome actor and actress. heehee. It was nicely balanced out, a combination of suspense, humour, tear-filled moments and love.
I'd watched it again and so would Baby I guess since he is head over heels in love with Megan Fox. But then again, who wouldn't be. She's hot, verrry hot.
After movie, Baby and Hairul went off for their Friday prayers while I ran a little errand at Lot 1. Met them back again for lunch, chilled and I went home. Met them again in the afternoon, at my void deck, chilled, then they went off.
Might be meeting 2/3 of the geng tomorrow, Baby and Razak could not be there because of family commitments and work commitments respectively.
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7:03 PM
I was pissed, wait no. I was fuming. But you were indifferent. I tried so hard with reasons but maybe just not hard enough for you. I fell hard too but yet again it was not hard enough for you. I tried to please you albeit everything it put me through however it seems I'm never good enough, not for you at least.
Right now, it seems to me that its no longer worth it to hope because from what I'm seeing, hoping is the very first step to disappointment. I had enough disappointment, I want to stop hoping but it seems safer than just talking to you.
I cannot read you, even after all this years, I can never read you like a book and you can't read me either, maybe because I keep changing the pages, the lines.
On another note, Rest In Peace Michael Jackson.
Labels: you're the hardest part of it all.
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June 25, 2009 @ 10:35 PM
I am pissed, bloody pissed.
Fuck screw fuck screw fuck screw
you.
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3:37 PM
You could easily make me fall, so hard and leave me to pick myself up on my own.
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June 24, 2009 @ 9:03 PM
Okay, at times the title of a post has got nothing to do with what I'm sharing/discussing/ranting/complaining or time-wasting about.
I've missed that little munchkin so so much, hence I took the chance to meet him just now. Good old times. Those chubby cheeks always gets me. I taught him numbers using his fingers today and he only remembers up to TWO. I also taught him how to draw lines and he taught me how to draw eyeballs. *laughs. I had a great time with him, despite the fact that I may be talking about A and he would be talking about B. Yes, he has a very inquisitive mind.
Ohh and he is afraid of my babyboyfriend because, he is one overly-dramatic boy and very jealous. Once he ask my aunt,his mom to bite my boyfriend and won't talk to me the whole day. He hates it when I spent more time talking to my babyboyfriend than him. Okay,enough about Md Haziq.
I met the girls today to discuss about our CMB project, TOP SECRET! *laughs. They came all the way to Lot 1 just for me. So sweet of you girls. Till the next meeting, girls. I would elaborate some more but I'm very tired.
That's all for now folks. auf Wiedersehen.
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June 23, 2009 @ 2:23 PM
I've said it once & I'm saying again. Sometimes, I hate the way my brain works. At times I wonder if its just a soft squishy wavy intestine-liked squashed together, protected by, practically, skin & bones. Okay, morbid much. Or are they filled with little minions shaped like those Lego figurines seated behind a computer desk deciding my every move? The ones that decide what my next move will be, what words will I speak of, how I decipher the things I see and hear and how will it trigger my imaginative mind. Perhaps they are the ones making me so paranoid about things and the ones who let those butterflies fly around freely in my stomach and the ones that makes my heart beat so hard, it thuds.
Or perhaps they are the ones that makes me think about things that I shouldn't have, the ones that trigger my emotion.
Labels: i need control.
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June 22, 2009 @ 1:37 PM
I am tired. I am shagged. I am very tired. I had a rough day at work yesterday and I had tough time sleeping. Did I mention I hate bloody work yesterday?
I won't elaborate. I met Mohamad Khairel aka show aka spiderpig yesterday after work. He needed my help. We bought some stuff then head down to a void deck and start our attempt as artist.
Waited for my babyboyfriend to come. Show said I was paranoid when Baby was 45 mins late. Who wouldn't be when Baby said that he would reach in 15mins time. Okay enough. So we sat and we talk. They talk about cars, bike and ghost while I turned on my selective hearing.
Am so glad that I am not working today, tomorrow, the next day and the next day. You get it. But I am not at all happy that I am alone at home.
Okay, I want to bathe and watch more telly.
Labels: my mind is getting wilder.
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June 19, 2009 @ 2:32 PM
Trust has always been an issue.
Just a matter of acceptance.
Labels: the way my mind works.
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2:11 PM
Yesterday was the ISB outing to Sentosa. It was alright, I had a great time. A good bonding session with the class. As usual we settled down pretty late. I was supposed to meet Jannah at Jurong East at 9 am but ended up meeting at 9.30 am. Baby lar, he wanted to send me to Jurong but he was late.
Meet with the class at 10.30 am, took some crazy pics while waiting for the rest of the class.
Skip skip skip.
Reached the designated picnic place at Tanjung beach rather late due to certain circumstances (only few of the ISB's knew) but all was well soon after. I changed and I ate. I drank a lot too because the weather was hot and I was dehydrated. We played games, fun. We did crazy stuff, took tonnes of pictures.
My favourite part of the day? The quiet game with Humai, Ziee, Raley and I. Awesome. I was the first to lose, cause' knowing me, its hard enough for me to be silent for ONE minute let alone TEN.
End of the day, I met my babyboyfriend at Vivo, had Ben & Jerry's, stargazed, met up with some of the girls again and then Baby sent me home.
Pictures will be up soon once I've gotten it from Humai.
auf Wiedersehen.
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June 14, 2009 @ 10:54 PM
F U L LY R E D E E M E D. Put that in your head, comprehend it. Once you know what it means, put it to good use and stop asking stupid obvious questions. When it is clearly stated there that it is fully redeem, it means there is no more redemption!
Sometimes, no its most of the time, the customer at my work place can really piss me off but too bad in that line of work you have to be patient. I don't know, maybe its just me or maybe they are just plain, well, stupid.
And there is this regular patron, today she came trying to redeem something but everything was finished, there was nothing left to give away, and she keeps asking us why we can't just replenish the stock, why must it be first come first serve, isn't it unfair for customers, all those illogical questions. After explaining it to her, she asks the same question again. She was bloody hell picking on my nerves, so I asked Ken to handle her before I jump off from the counter and strangle her.
I'm sorry if I bore you with my sadistic rants but the three minutes you spent reading this post can never be replaced.
auf Wiedersehen.
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June 13, 2009 @ 10:33 PM
I got nothing to talk about actually. Sorry for the improper update, one being I'm too tired to do so and two, I don't think my brain can squeeze out any more juices.
So this is something random.
Meet my new found alien friend, specially ordered alongside a double chb (insidejoke). Her name is Nurul Jannah. Don't be afraid, she doesn't bite. haha.
Jannah, this is for you, alien!
*i miss boyfriend. bby let's go, this friday, a date. just you and me and nothing else.
love you. muah.
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June 11, 2009 @ 7:43 PM
I was so looking forward to the holidays, not denying the fact that I was already in holiday mode since two weeks back.
Then, I was bombarded. I need to effing go back to school on Monday, THE VERY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLIDAY, to go and retake my Office Application class assessment just because the bloody diskette does not want to open the bloody files I saved. I know I saved it, I know I did.
I am so effing enrage, I don't want my first few hours of school holiday to be spend in school. That just doesn't sound right. It sure won't feel right.
I guess I'll just have to deal with it. There's nothing more I could do, I really want to ace my module. Argh, this is so infuriating.
I'm gonna punch someone/something in the face now. I'll be over it then.
Labels: insertvulgaritieshere.
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June 10, 2009 @ 1:04 PM
Happy Pills!
See the people above?
I need to meet the happy people.
I miss every single one so effing much.
Wahh, meet soon sayangs sayangs!
editted.
Labels: green tea.
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June 9, 2009 @ 8:00 PM
Sometimes, I hate knowing what I know.
I hate knowing things that I shouldn't know.
I bear a weakness, I think too much.
I keep pondering about things that I shouldn't,
because it seems to me that a quarter of my life has been a lie.
Everything seems like a lie when trust is lost.
And when I think too much, I'll have questions.
Questions that will have answers that I never want to know.
And when I don't get my answers,
my brain gets wild.
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June 6, 2009 @ 11:03 PM
See that? That's Dinah and Mrs Tay in the center. See Mrs Tay's tummy? Humongous, in a good way lar.Went to Unity's Funfair. It wasn't awesome but it wasn't bad either, so, mediocre? Walked around with boyfriend, Dinah and Achap. Ran into some old friends, reminisce for a while, hydrate ourselves. Met Hafiz and Izzul too. Chilled and reminisce some more. Good times good times.
After a good catching up, it was time to go to work. Baby sent me off.
Reached work and the first thing I saw was the long queue. I was lightly briefed about the on goings and then its judgement time. I totally forgot how crazy it was to work there. The people you might encounter and the bitches who you would just love to strangle. It was so effing hectic.
My feet was hurting by the time I reached home, so I plop myself to the sofa and tell myself to rest for another good five minutes every time the thought of washing up occurs. I have to work again tmr, just hope it would not be this hectic.
Ohh, what hell! Who am I kidding? Tmr is an effing Sunday, of course it would crazy.
I need to rest. Blagh.
Labels: cotton-ed balls.
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June 4, 2009 @ 9:04 PM
A warm & sweet kiss.
It lingered just long enough,
to make it clear that it meant
more than just a hello.
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June 3, 2009 @ 11:00 PM
52nd Monthsary.
It can never be enough how much I keep telling you I love you.
You've been my pillar of strength, my rock, my everything.
I want to thank you for still holding on and still giving your best to make this work whenever the future of this relationship looks so bleak. For entertaining my shit days, my mood swings, my inner child. For listening to my stories, for laughing at my lame jokes. For not minding my bad hair days, telling me I still look "hot" when I feel so crappy and wiped away my tears no matter how ugly I looked. For cracking me up when I feel so f'ed up. Thank you for constantly looking me in the eye to assure me whenever I feel so insecure. Time will show progress and change. We will find time, to spend a much needed quality time together.
I will always love you.
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June 2, 2009 @ 11:39 PM
Do you feel that, Girl? Do you feel the pain that is burning you heart right now like it did to mine? Do you feel the way your heart is breaking, how insecure you feel about the surroundings, how everything seems so unreal?
Retribution. Apart of me wants you to feel the pain, wants you to go through what I went through. Experience the shit you put me in, making me hate you so much and making me lose all trust I had in the one person I truly love. But I'm not stooping that low, I'm not so petty. Once bitten twice shy.
Even though the words you 'spoke' is still etched in my head, I am slowly healing. I'm being a bigger person and I hope, unlike me, you would get out of this rut, unscathed.
Labels: ensconced. (editted)
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June 1, 2009 @ 9:49 PM
I wanted the holidays to come soon. Real soon. I want to get out of the school's environment real bad. I mean the company is awesome but I just want my life back, the life that I had when I was enjoying my 5 months holidays. I want to spend quality time with boyfriend, a much needed time together. And I want to spend time with the Happy Pills. All of us together.
In conclusion, I need my term break to come, fast.
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